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Giving God Our Best!

2011-05-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hey! I know I've not blogged for a 'short' period of time. Exactly 1 year and 1 month. =) Cool eh? ;p Not gonna talk much but to just drop some stuffs God is constantly reminding me and one another through another church pastor's blog. Link's below. Great stuffs! =) So yeah, will be back soon! Gonna blog more since I'm free-ier now. Will explain why in my next blog post. Watch out! =p

Serving God is the greatest privilege that we can ever have! You don't need to be called into full time ministry to serve the Lord. We just need to be available and be the bridge that will connect others to our Heavenly Father!

Serving God is fun! Serving God is exciting! Serving God is fulfilling! Serving God opens the flood gates of heaven over us! Serving God helps us to mature in our walk with Him! Serving God bond us together with the rest of His children! Serving God is adventurous! Serving God brings joy and tears! Serving God causes us to enjoy a greater level of intimacy with Him! There are many pleasures that comes in serving the Lord and I can't finish stating them all! Why don't you try it? Taste it and you will love it!

As we serve God, let's bear this constantly in our minds -"But, this precious treasure-this light and power that now shine within us - is held in perishable containers, that is in our weak bodies. So everyone can see that our glorious power is from God and is not our own. We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going. That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying our spirits are being renewed everyday."
2 Corinthians 4:7-9, 16

COME JOIN ME! As we give the prime time of our lives to serve the God who deserves nothing but our best!!!

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ily, Dad

2010-04-30T08:52:00.000-07:00

Just to share a song I came across a song book during keyboard lesson. Love the lyrics.

xx,

Melissa

More Than I Imagine

2010-04-30T07:14:00.000-07:00

Helloooo!

How are you doing?

I am doing great here. Life's been busy when March kicked in and got even busier as April falls. However, there were greattt, exciting moments, L-O-L moments, not-so-pretty moments, and of course stress moments.

Still, praise God soo much that He's in control of my life and schedule. So often, I drift away from Him. But His everlasting love never fails to find me. These happens when He allows me to go down through unwanted situations, and that is when I cry out, "God, I can't do this on my own anymore!" That's when He gently picks me up, holds my hand and continues back the journey-leading me on. Sometimes, we're like that, aren't we? Boasting when we're all strong and mighty thinking we can do it all by myself, only to forget and then remember that it is GOD WHO MADE US STRONG!

I have so much to share. One of them is my experience of God singing to me during worship. That happened just a few weeks ago on a Sunday morning. While worshipping in church during the song "You Are More Than I Imagine"... As I was singing to God and trying to mean what I was singing...

You are more than I imagine,
Greater than the heavens,
Deeper than my heart could ever dream,
You are more than any treasure,
Beyond what I could measure,
Everything that I could ever dream,
More than enough for me.

All of a sudden, God spoke in my heart, "let me sing this to you." So, I allowed God to. Listening to the worship team and the congregations sing as God sings through them, half way, I stopped. "This is crazy!! How can this be? GOD, G-O-D is singing to me?! I was trying to pull myself back. I'm the one who's supposed to worship God, not Him singing to me. This is so wrong!"

So, I continued back worshipping God. Then, God spoke to me again. "Let me sing to you." I stopped and remembered the verse:
Zephaniah 3:17(NIV) "The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing."

So this time, knowing it is God who wants to sing to me, I gladly allowed Him to. And it touches my heart hearing Him singing these.. the SAME THING I sang, back at me:

You are more than I imagine,
Greater than the heavens,
Deeper than my heart could ever dream,
You are more than any treasure,
Beyond what I could measure,
Everything that I could ever dream,
More than enough for me.

I am more than God imagines. I am greater than the humungous heaven that He created. His love and thoughts of me are deeper than His heart could ever dream. He says I am more than any treasure, beyond what He could measure, I AM everything He could ever dream... I am more than enough for Him.

That is what I call Father's love. Sometimes, our earthly dad will fail us in certain ways and sometimes we think, they couldn't measure up to our expectations as dads, but bear in mind... We have a heavenly Father who adores us. Who rejoices over us. And even sings over us passionately. Jesus loves you and I so deeply; more than our hearts can imagine.

Rejoicing in His greeaatt <3,
Melissa

Wisdom is what I desire

2010-02-16T00:05:00.000-08:00

BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR YA'LL!!!!!

How was your CNY? Hope you had a great time reuniting with your long lost family! I had a great CNY minus some stuffs that happened on the first day. My grandma couldn't get up from the bed in the evening after falling down. So we had to call for a doctor to come over and to give her an injection. But thank God she is fine now. phew~

First day of CNY: As pastor said, church first, then celebrations. Worship led that morning. Scared for the past few days as I have not chose my songs one day before practice. That week was just so packed! Mental block for list of songs too. =p But thank God for everything- for being my strength; for just being there to cheer me on; for believing in me even when I doubt my own ability. His grace is always sufficient, never lacking. Also, thank God for Pastor, Aty Jackie, Aunty Priscilla, Aunty Cindy and Uncle Charlie who played and sing on that day. Went aunt's house for lunch; grandma's house for dinner. Seeing grandma suffering on that night- horrible. Collected $$ of course ;)

Second day: Dad's friends came over. And more of dad's friends. Followed by relatives. Dinner at grandma's house again! Cool! haha!

Third day: Shopping with friends cancelled. Get well soon, babe! SO bloggin'. =)

CNY week (14-19 Feb) is relaxing for me. No classes on Monday, Thurs and Fri, no piano lessons on Tues, no music practice for youth on Thurs night, no keyboard class on Thurs afternoon etc... Hence, I get to catch some movies- Percy Jackson and the lightning thief (a show that confused me enough on truth and placed fear. :S.. but still! I enjoyed hanging out with my cool youth friends =)) and a few movies on 411, 413. I don't know when I'm able to do so and relax again! Definitely going to enjoy my week! Absolutely!

Nevertheless, there's still many things to do that needs time, discipline and effort. I need to buck up on my keyboard skills, listen to the instrumental parts of the song and learn. Guess this is the best way to learn. Piano pieces and scales... Accountings- assignments and study! Marketing Principles- presentation on Monday; revision on chapters. The items may be few, but the time needed is huge!

I need to cut down time on the Net. Though not alot, but still..... sigh. It's amazing how I can surf the Net just going where I feel like dropping by on those webpages. Aarghhh.

Psalm 90:12(A) So teach us to number our days, that we may get a heart of wisdom.

Dear God,

Please show me how short my life really is, so that I may use my time wisely to do things that are important instead of doing things that are not beneficial. Grant me a heart of wisdom.

You know my name
<3

40 Days is over; but there's more to come! whee!

2010-01-25T09:21:00.000-08:00

If you've been reading my previous posts, I've once blogged about a book- Give Me 40 Days. Here's the link: http://ilivebyfaith.blogspot.com/2009/11/launch-my-youth-like-cannonball.html Well, today (25th January 2010) in history, is the day I've completed my 40 Days. *clap*

Well actually I took 56 Days to complete my 40 days. What happened? Tiredness and hecticness was the main reasons, laziness and procrastination had their equal shares as well. haha

But all in all, it's a great journey. I say it again, great journey. Though there were times when it's hard to persevere and thought of quitting comes occasionally especially when you feel like giving up, but still I chose not to give up.

One thing God spoke to Freeda before she wrote this book was "Would you give me 40 days?" Well, to me, God told and reminded me time again that"Time is in His hands." So everytime when I am just so pressed for time, God reminds me- "Time is in God's hands." I remembered God once asked me on one of the morning of my finals, "Can you give me 20 minutes?" Yes, 20. =) In that 20 minutes, I willingly laid aside my textbooks, notes etc and just read the 40 Days book, pray and probably even sing a song of praise. It was so refreshing and I feel not anxious whether I am all prepared for my exams or not coz I know in the end of the day, it is not my exam results that holds my future, it is my God who holds my very future.

There's just so much I've learnt- commit to God and He will direct your path, surrendering your expectations to God, watch what you speak as it can either bring life or death, getting your motives right with God and of course, the importance of prayer. I've also grown to be much more sensitive to God, definitely.

I can't write my whole experience here which I can't exactly remember all, but if you are keen in having a close walk and relationship with Jesus, then I recommend this book to you. It changed my life and my heart deep inside. Give God a chance to mould your heart. He re-shaped those part of my heart that was out of shape, though there are still so many areas that needs to be shaped! Not only that, your eyes will be open to look out for the needs of others.

Chase God, pursue God, seek God. And all things shall be added unto you.

*p/s: If you want to do this 40 days, I strongly advice you to pray for covering over yourself, family and close friends. satan is going to do his work in bringing you down as well. just look at my posts from 1st Dec till 25th Jan. Actually, my posts are just a lil of what I went through. But do not fear, if God is for us who can be against us? =D

Cheers!

Hold on to your dreams

2010-01-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

I've digged up some old yet very precious treasures, in the midst of clearing my very messy room. Those pictures used to be oh-so-dear to me!

A friend of mine wanted to borrow a Vince's album which I digged through my drawer only to find that I do not own that particular album. Nevertheless, I've found some old precious photos. I shall let the pictures speak.

I think this was my first time meeting Vince in person. My dad went all the to The Mines from PJ okay to drop me and my mum! Now thinking, my parents were crazy! Lol.. Nah, they just loved me so much, don't they, to 'obey' (give in to) my desires? No wonder, I love them too. =p

How this picture was my favourite. Vince's motto- "Hold On To Your Dreams."

He was more than an artiste to me. He inspires and encourages me through his beliefs, godliness and character. A man who never fails to give praise to God whenever he wins an award- big or small! I guess these are the few main reasons why I used to be 'crazy' =)

K moving on.. I found some memories that brings back my highschool fond memories. Here's two of them. Cocuriculum was one of the things that kept me very busy throughout my highschool years. LEO Club, Chess, Rangers, CU.... you name it. But it's good because I've been
'trained' to be involved and active in many things. Juggling things.

Oops, This Is Our God Album background behind my pictures. Love it though.

Cheers!

Life is unpredictable, but I enjoyed every single learning moment with You

2010-01-23T06:18:00.000-08:00

God..

I don't know if I can take this any further. From one testing to another testing and the list goes on; I don't know when is it going to end. I now understand what Job went through- from one testing to another. I feel I could relate to Job. Lord, how ironic is it that I could not find some one that I'm close with to relate to, but instead Job who lived long ago is whom I can relate to. Lol.. And yes, Lord, I know what I'm going through is probably even nothing compared to Job who lost his wife, his friends sneered at him, endured all kinds of afflctions brought by the devil.. He's so tough and strong in You.

No matter what the devil can throw at me, my faith in You remains strong. When I asked you why am I going through these and how long more... "You said You are enlarging my capacity to contain more of You." But when I pray that it will end faster, You ain't happy... I can see that what's coming in the months to come- the new responsibilties, new journey, new leading, new challenges and adventures. You are really changing and moulding my heart. Ever since January started, You are so concern that you would not even let a minute go to waste in doing what You can to teach. THERE'S SO MUCH YOU'RE ARE DOING!

Well the downside, my friends will keep thinking that I'm emo, heartsick, heart broken, stress and whatever reasons I can think of whenever they see me cry. Uh it''s embarrassing especially when they see me, someone older than them cry.. Really lose 'face' lah. But nevertheless, I have never let it stop me from allowing You to speak to me, convict me, love me, hear what You have to say or feel or even what You are doing. It's crazyyy yet amazinggg, for reasons!

Weell, Your will be done in my life. All I ever ask of is that You don't leave me. I can't live life without You. My life will never be the same O Lord. My greatest asset is You, God.

Your Love In The Desert...

2010-01-22T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hey there!

If you're going through tough times when life seems to get out of control; when you don't know which road to take; when you're unsure if God is with you in your hardest time, I pray this song will encourage your soul just as it had done to mine when I penned it down. All glory to God! Though yes, I wished I need not go through all these which to me are unnessary, but I trust that every single thing that happens in my life is for good in the end. (In addition to all, today, both my eyes are swollen! How am I going to go out and youth tmr?? How am I going to go for practice, and back up sing?

My cry is Psalm 22:11 & 8-"Do not be far from me, for trouble is near and there is no one to help."He trusts in the Lord; let the LORD rescue him. Let him deliver him, since he delights in him." You made me trust in You!

Guess He knows what's happening and allows it to happen, for a reason. Praise God that though my circumstances may be big, but God is wayyyy BIGGERRR!!!

YOUR LOVE IN THE DESERT

Verse:

Would I find Your love in the desert?

Would I find Your peace in the midst of the storm?

Would I find Your light when I have lost my way?

Would I find Your strength when weakness comes?

Pre-Chorus:

Oh how near You are,

That Your arms surrounding me

Oh how Your love,

That is so, so, so strong!

Chorus:

Mighty God,

I find my strength in You

Oh Prince of Peace

It's You who calm my storm

Everlasting Father

Your grace will see me through

And yes, for sure

I'll find Your love in the desert

My passion- God

2010-01-21T07:40:00.001-08:00

Time flies so fast! It's the 21st already. January has been exciting because God never fails to surprise me with the things He could do, tiring for so many different reasons every day, lovely for the doors He has open for me, unlovely when yucky things happen such as getting sick.

Anyway, I thought of doing a January wrap-up post but I don't think I can. It'll take forever literally.

So here it begins. =)

1. Do you know the status update we type on facecbook is so powerful? Guess you won't know coz it made me fall sick. Because of this sentence- "Rescue me from the boat of complacency." I couldn't believe it that I fell sick and still am after 1 week because of that one sentence! Well, the reason this happen is not because of a status update but a real heart's cry to not stay in the comfort zone where all is so nice and comfy (which I tend to like)... And now what the Bible says that the devil is prowling around like a lion looking for someone to devour. Guess he found me... To summarize it, yes it affected my life- falling sick is not nicee ok?, my mood etc.. But God allowed this to happen to teach me that though I'm in the midst of my own problems, God taught me to look at other people's needs and pray for them. And of course, to always be alert and pray.

2. God has opened a new door for me for my future career. I failed my Grade 8 piano's practical last year. Hence, I have to re-sit. But it does not stop there. God has turned my failure into a blessing in disguise. Because I failed, I had to look for another teacher coz my current teacher just gave birth and her schedule is so pack according to her. I trusted God that He knows which is the right one for me coz He's the one that reminded me; surely He has a plan for me. Anyway, I called my ex-piano teacher who owns the piano school to ask if she could accept me as a student again (quite embarrassing honestly). I quitted that piano school in 2005 because of PMR. My ex piano teacher told me years ago that she will hire me when I finish my Grade 8. I never thought of this to happen coz I quitted last time. But God brought me back to her. Right at Grade 8 (re-sit). God certainly has His own sense of humor. HIs timing is always, always James Bond's timing. chun~! I'm planning to work coz I have to pay off my education loan on my own (parents MIGHT help in the future) and I plan to work as a tuition teacher or/and a piano teacher as side income even before I graduate, only if it's God's will. =))

I've always, always wanted to work, but God never allowed me to work. Once when I asked Him can I work, He gave me an answer which is, "You have no time."- which was true. Other times, no peace in my heart. Last semester precisely, I thought I could look for a job for 2 weeks and I won't have problems going there coz my brother works at Pyramid. I thought God allowed me. Off I brushed my teeth. All of a sudden, my eyes began to itch. I just touched (haven't even rub) and it became red. Sigh.. So I know it's not God's will for me to work yet. Those jobs at Pyramid pays RM5 per hour. Poor brother honestly. And God reminded me, you cannot serve both God and money. conviction. ouch.

Deep down I've always know that God has a different plan for my life, somehow. He directs my path. I know God always wants to bless me and every child of His abundantly, only if we will obey His voice. I've always remembered what my friend Jessica shared in LYPG. Being obedient to God means when God says you run, you run.. When He says you stop, you stop. When He says you eat, you eat. You fast, you fast.

You can never buy God's voice with money. To me, hearing God's voice is sooo precious. Hearing (and feeling) what's in His heart- the pain, the joy is invaluable. No matter how rich you are, you can never buy God's precious voice. God taught me to listen to His voice, to always check in tune with Him. Hear His directions, His will. This is what I call EXCITINGGGG!!!!! Maybe this is what keeps me passionate about till this day. Though I have to clearly say, hearing God's voice is not only for me. And it does not suddenly happen. The more you desire to hear from God, spend time with Him, love Him with all your heart, you will definitely experience them.

Till then, cheers!

I. Stand. In. Awe.

2010-01-05T08:22:00.000-08:00

I was just looking back at the pictures that I have in facebook. And as I kept looking from one picture to another, my heart just stood amazed. So amazed at the hands of God, His faithfulness and His presence in my life. Beginning of last year 2009, I recalled God gave me an impression while praying. I saw a balloon that just kept expanding and expanding that it grew very very big; bigger than my whole self! And God gave me a forward 'notice' that He is going to expand me, stretched me. Throughout the year, He spoke to me reminding me to not fear, but step out and I will soar. I didn't realized He expanded me more than I knew of probably coz there's so many things that just kept happening, that I didn't had much time to reflect. All I know was there's something challenging as each month or even weeks passed by!

Worship leading for church's main service was probably one of the craziest thing I've ever said yes to last year. I cried for hours negotiating with God with every reasons like I can't sing so well etc. But in the end, I know God has a plan. A plan I do not know. I am fearful, I admit when it comes to worship leading. But through it all, as I've grown from strength to strength and from church service to service, I've seen how God used people who are available and willing to trust Him when He calls. God will never call us to do something which we cannot do.

Moving on, this year has been a very special year to me as God started putting a passion or desire to pray for Malaysia. It all happened one day when I asked God what He would like me to pray. And I started praying for Malaysia. Tears rolled down my eyes as I felt God's heart, and thus I know that the nation is where the heart of God lies. Not that God cares more about the nation more than us, but God has such great plans for every country, including Malaysia. I started attending Local Youth Prayer Gathering (LYPG) on Saturdays. *Please check out the LYPG video on the side of my blog! And come? =))*

Oh how I remember after a few times attending, I wanted to stop going. But the night before LYPG, God said He wanted me to go. And how much struggles I had in finding transportation. I often asked my mum but she's busy on Sat. My dad does not like to be involved in Christian activities as he's not a Christian. So, I went to sleep telling God, that it's not that I don't want to go now, but I've no transport. The next morning as soon as I just opened my eyes, God immediately spoke to me to go. I was confused and scared but all I know is when God says go, I really need to go, no matter what. He'll surely provide the way. True enough, Holy Spirit asked me to ask my dad and surprisingly my dad agreed to take me. The following week, the same scenario of God asking me to attend on Friday night, but mum said no coz she needs to do marketing, the next morning God spoke to go again. And on that day, my dad will be passing by Kelana Jaya around that hour to go to Sri Damansara (if I'm right). So from that onwards, I knew God wanted me to join LYPG. Not only that, God provided a way for me to go- dad (most of the time) or mum(depending). No matter what I'll be there. And it was a start to a journey of searching my heart's motive, catching and feeling God's heartbeat, feeling God's heartpain, listening for His voice and direction, conviction of our sins and loving God more and more. It has certainly been one of the major highlights in my life. Attended MYPG 3 @ Alor Setar, hearing God speak to me again through Richard Rajoo, Yoshua etc. Not forgetting ThePlan09! Can't wait to see a lasting youth missions movement taking place in Malaysia, seeing youths catching the fire to be God's armies. A year God arranged for me to cross-pathed with passionate Christian youths especially. Exciting, exciting! With a vision that is so great.

Studies wise, all I can say is praise God! A GPA of 3.5 and above for all my 3 semesters in this 2009 is definitely God's favor, mercy and faithfulness. Oh how many times I thought I wouldn't have made it. 2010 results?? Gotta put in more effort though and God will see me through again, confidently.

Serving God in youth, church and CF has been increasing more and more. CF Camp, SEGi Revolution P.A.R.T.Y and WiFi youth camp, worship teams etc... Not forgetting the opportunity to be part of the worship team for Global Day Of Prayer 2009 again and ThePlan09. God has always believed in me, even when I doubt myself. He's a cool, super cool God! <33

Relationships.. I think I hardly touch on this in my blog. lol.. Well, I'm glad I wasn't into any relationship this year, otherwise I would have missed out on the many great things He has for me this year. Am still waiting (for "David- a man after God's own heart").. with a deep confidence that God has the best for me. =) And my focus should (will) always be serving God first. My verse(I mean God's verse): Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all other things shall be added unto you. Help me to wait patiently for the awesomest guy You have for me, Father God. Amen! =))

All in all, I'm humbled. So humbled that God would want to use an ordinary girl who doesn't have much to offer in terms of talent, resources like me. But I began to learnt that God is not scouting for talents and all, He's looking for an individual that is always available for God to use any time, any moment. God really does look at our heart, more than any other!

Will 2010 be another busy year for me? What has God put in my heart for this 2010? 2010 will be 3Bs- Better, Bigger, and Brighter. I pondered and questioned, was 2009 not so bright for me, that 2010 will be brighter? lol.. As I think back, yeah, that there were times when things or incidents that happened that weren't so bright. But whatever it is, I believe that God has a purpose for everything that happens in and throughout my life.

This year's theme for my life is to be a light and perfume for Him, carrying His presence wherever I go, that I might bring others to know Him. (which I realized was aligned to my church theme this year: The Church in Many Places; not jsut in church but wherever we are. We are the Church itself!) And a few watchouts- not to let $$ to cause me from slowing down in serving God. sigh.. And to remember God does not just look at my 'righteousness'.

Much ahead for 2010! God bless each of you who reads my posts! Cheers!

Ohana means family. family means... nobody gets left behind or forgotten =)

2010-01-05T03:44:00.000-08:00

People often ask me what I have been busy about..

Well, my Intercultural Dance performance and booth set up was one of th many. Below is my group's dance performance which we've been practising almost every day for the month of late Oct, Nov and Dec last year. Do check it out if you'd like to. The one at the sidebar can only be viewed half. So yeah. Praise God for the pretty good responses we've received! Halleluyah!

Groupie! From left: Christine, farah, Sharmisttha, Melissa, Staci, Reynolds

Working as a group is not easy. There were good times, conflicts etc but I thank God coz He has placed each of us there as a group for a purpose. I began to see the strengths and also the weaknesses of each of us.

Christine- She's a brave girl. She'll get whatever she wants and whatever she needs, in her own ways though. She knows how to use whatever she has to attain it. She is a good dancer and a real good choreographer. Cheerleading, dancing is her thing.

We got a sponsorship from Sunway Group for our costume, thanks to Christine. =)
Background pic was Sunway Lagoon, trying out our costumes.

Staci- She's creative, full of ideas and thinks thoroughly before carrying out something. A very busy girl who is in charged of the college's UIU's Fayette House. A brilliant girl who carries herself well in socializing with people.

This is one of the many creative ideas of Staci's. Credits to Staci.

Reynolds- Well, also another brain in this group. He reads alot and is knowledgeable. Thus, he got the responsibility to read a book on the Portuguese Settlement for one of our presentations and summarize it for us. He is always ready to contribute whatever is needed for this group. He carried packets of ice on the day of the booth and performance by BUS ALONE!

Farah- Fuh.. A natural dancer. No dance classes or any background in dancing, and she dances really well. Like really, really well! Though she often has transportation problems in coming for practices, nevertheless, she danced well on that day. Proud of her!

Sharmisttha- Gorgeous is one word to describe her. haha. The kids you see in the video/pics are her cute tiny lil cousins. The flowers you see at our booth are borrowed from her mother. She's also one who's like a natural dancer. She shakes her hips really well, so pro. Don't believe, look at the video. (orange shirt!)

Melissa- Yours truly.. Not for me to say. =)

I want to thank Cheng fee Vien, the girl below for coming on that day to support me and also, to see how it's like where Intercultural Comm will now be her subject the next sem! Thank you for being supportive though you often have transport problems, but you still came! THANK YOU, FEE VIEN!!!

Below are some shots taken with other group members who did a brilliant job too in making this event a success!

Another of our group photo with the kids. Farah is missing! Behind is our booth.

That's all for now. Take care!

Masquerade

2010-01-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

This is my movie making project done for my last Movies Class under Ms. Jaime. It may or may not be the best among the best, but still...

WELL DONE, TEAMMATES!!!

We've worked together so efficiently that we finished it in a day! But what really amazed me was we've not only worked together as a group but also with another group. We helped each other and for instance in this video, the one and only other group helped us in shooting the video, following us wherever we go, patiently re-taking scenes again and again, and also in contributing better ideas. Thank you for your time, effort and friendship!

Blessed Happy New 2010!

2009-12-31T04:40:00.000-08:00

I've never feel so relaxed the whole year (since 2009 started) till a few days ago! Seriously. I'm outdated.. In movies, even shopping and what not. Anyway, just a simple and short update.

1. Sunway Pyramid with cuzzy wuzzy cousins (and bro-short while) YESTERDAY, 30th Dec

2. Sunway Pyramid again TODAY (am not complaining ;p) with bestie and Denise

I've never found such awesome shoppers that has pretty alike taste in fashion clothings and most of all, can walk as fast as I do while shopping from store to store! Awesome lah. ;) ahaha.

As I close this year, I want to thank God for first of all, being my God, my Saviour, Bestest Friend, my Listener, Comforter, Encourager and lots more. Thank You, God for every single thing though there were times I disobeyed You, times I forsaken You, times I disappoint You, broken Your heart... but I want You to know (and I know You know) that I LOVE YOU, FATHER GOD. Knowing You, loving and serving You was the best (bester, bestest) thing that has happened to me! I'm forever Yours. =)

To my friends out there, I'm sorry if I've hurted you or offended you in any ways. My most sincere apologies. Thank you for standing my me watching me fall, grow and also encouraged me all along the way. You are the best. I may not have thanked you or showed my appreciation whoever you are, but I've learnt that good friends are real hard to find! Thus, I treasure every single good friend that I have like crazee! Ppl say, diamonds are a girl's best friend. To me, best friends are even better than diamonds. No words can describe whast best friends are to me. Soo sorry if I've made you feel 'geli'. But whatever it is, thank YOU!!! =)

*now I cut the ribbons signifying the closing year of 2009* *cut*

BLESSED HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 ALL!

Watchnite Service @ church coming right up. I mean, NOW. =P

more. than. life. could. bring.

2009-12-25T00:06:00.000-08:00

Blessed Christmas everybody!!!

May you find hope, joy, love and peace again this season of Christmas! May you find your true home and purpose.

Christmas season is always a busy season where finals are here, camps are on, christmas dramas and college events are going on. Or at least for me. It has been a tiring nevertheless exciting time seeing how frustrated myself can be at times when exams are near and you have responsibilities in church at the same time, seeing the smiles and laughters on your friends' faces, seeing hearts united as one, many 'hiccups' as well but God was in control. It was such a joy to serve God though I struggled so sooo much this month in putting God first above my exams. Yes, exams. I tried handling and accepting tasks which I can do on my own strength and said NO to other tasks coz I just wanted to have time to just relax off and study for exams.

One week before exams, my masterplan was to stay home- chill and focus on finals. But on that week, was the packed worship practises for camp (thank God for each of them who never really complained. They are awesome!). Also, drama practises which I initially refused to join. Till Siemens asked me again, then God spoke to my heart it's like you either accept me or reject me. Of course, knowing if this is what God wants I'll join. In my heart, I was really thinking God this is so crazy! Exams next week, Lord! I'm not even ready... Later on, during practice Aunty Karine who was in charged of the drama asked if I can be in charged of the signboards for props though I thought she asked the wrong person coz firstly, standing beside me is Sheryn- the creative girl in arts! Secondly, exams! In the end, I said, CAN. Coz I know God led me to this drama practice. But thank God, 2 days before the real Christmas drama, I brought it to cell and Sheryn, Fee Vien and some aunties helped. God surely will make a way when you are doing things according to His will. So in the end, done! yay.. that's 13 dec btw..

Finals- 16th Dec..

In between those dates, coordinate time for practice and attend worship practice, study a lil and feeling so weared out..

But guess what?!

God has been so good and merciful to me. I realized one thing this year or actually since I started to serve God more and more, God has given me this ability to study and remember facts of chapters whenever I spend time studying even if it's a few days before exams. I thought it was just that time, but after many exams, I realized God has blessed me with this ability to store alot of information as effectively as studying earlier. God redeemed my time that whenever I study, my mind is very focused.

I have alot more to share, what I've shared is only 1/4 of what happened in December for my life. If you want to know more, you can ask me. Can't write all. teehee!

Anyway, I would like you to drop by for our last Sunday of the year service. If you would still like to celebrate Christmas (okay, maybe not Christmas, but New Year) but you think its too late, scrap that thought off coz.... you still can! Drop by Grand Dorsett Hotel (formerly known as Sheraton Hotel) directly opposite @ SS12 this Sunday 10:30am. It's never too late to give your heart to Jesus. I'll be leading worship this Sunday. We'll be singing You Raised Me Up. Yup, by Josh Groban. God has indeed raised us up this year I believe, drawing us closer to the plans He has for our life, seen and unseen.

Have a wonderful Christmas! Christmas isn't Christmas until it happens in your heart- the story of the birth of Jesus that came to this world because He loves us. There's no greater love than one who can give His life for you.

Come! Come and you will not regret if you have found this love without condition. Hope to see you =)

Blessed Christmas again ya'll!

Grieving with hope.

2009-12-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

Spending 10 minutes to blog. =)

Today, I've received a heart-wrenching news- Uncle Joseph Lim (Calvin's and Collin's dad) passed away. Aunty Wendy and Hon Wei forwarded the message to pray for him when we received the news that he fell from the roof right to the drain. Apparently, he was fixing the leakage on his roof.

Tears rolled down my cheeks as soon as I received the news that he passed away not too long after I received the message to pray for him. It's like I almost couldn't believe it as it happened way too fast to actually think again that he's no longer here. I just saw him on Sunday, which was 3 days ago.

I can't believe it.

I still can't!

But I want to thank God for this gift- Uncle Joseph Lim. He has always been one of the nice guys in church who will randomly go up front to sing a song for his wife while strumming a guitar or even for guest speakers like Pastor Ann. I think many will remember him for his gentle and kind soul within him. Even right now, I have no idea why but a peace within my heart assuring me that he is happy in heaven. I know God orders Uncle Jo's steps. Every step of the way. May the God of all comfort comfort his family at this moment of time. My deepest and heartfelt condolence to Aunty Stephanie, my youth friends- Calvin and Collin and their sister.

Uncle Jo's legacy as High Praise King of Rock and Roll (a.k.a. Elvis Presley) will continue to live in our hearts.

Life is way too fragile. Treasure every moment you have with your loved ones- people who are precious to you... before it's too late!

Launch my youth like a cannonball

2009-11-29T08:28:00.000-08:00

My church had a fund raising dinner for a new building last night- Fund The Fun Dinner @ SJKC Chee Wen. And our youth helped out in decorating the hall pumping hundreds of balloons, inserting bottle of sauces into the goodie bag.. Placing them on every seat. There's 100 tables. Each table about 12 chairs k.. COOL (Christ Our Only Lord) set up a booth to promote camp to all especially youths on that night. Wanna thank God for the 3 people who signed up. I'm sure those who signed up will have a life-changing camp by faith.

More pictures of dinner and others will come up I hope. Haha.

I'll be starting on a journey of reading a devotional and giving God 40 days to see what He wants me to do for the 40 days to come. Am curious yet excited at the same time to see how God can use my very tight and busy schedule to strengthen my faith by praying for other people's needs. I totally feel what the author is going through as I read a little of the book; how she felt so overwhelmed with all the responsibilities, both with her family and ministry that it consumed her life physically and emotionally. The important key in doing this devotion is to pray for others. As I pray for others, God will meet my needs. But that doesn't mean I can't pray for my own need, just that the focus will be more on praying for others rather than for myself. Teach me, Dad!

For more information on the book or if you want to read a little, feel free to search for Give Me 40 Days by Freeda Bowers at http://www.amazon.com/.

Take care!!

Every moment is in Your hands, Lord

2009-11-29T08:20:00.000-08:00

God, I pray that you will help me go through life's trials and problems that is found in the journey of living my life. Let not any afflictions or pain that I face be wasted. Reveal and show me Your purpose in allowing me to go through them. All things work together for GOOD for those who love you. You arrange my steps that I take. I trust in You.

Amen.

Joyful Friday

2009-11-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow'a gonna be a busy, busy day.

My schedule:
8:30am-11:30am- Movies Class
11:45am-2:30pm- CF (Screening of Fireproof!)
12pm- Enter Eng 102 class to sign attendance and chiaoz (with lecturer's permission to all who finished presentation. Praise God!)
12:30pm-1 +pm?- Meeting with SC (Student Council)
1pm-1:45pm- Keyboard class
2pm-4:30pm- Money and Banking class
6pm-11+pm- Emerge KL @ Sunway Convention Centre
8:30pm- midnight- Cell group

People(or books) say that when you start to list down, you get a better picture and a better solution.
Well, I would say I got a clearer picture and now.. Finding out my priorities. Though most of them are?

Thank God that CF's annual report does not need to be done by tomorrow. Just got a rough idea on how to do it. Thanks to MMA's president, Kenrick Chua for the help. Now, I don't have to stay up late! Praise God, praise God!!!

Initially, I wanted to react big coz it's overwhelming, when I started to think of all that I have for tomorrow. Many clashes of agendas and meals- breakfast, lunch, dinner have to be squeezed. Till God gently nudge me on the way home from worship practise that He has given me His peace and He is in perfect control. Now I feel better, more at peace though nothing of my schedule changed. God's like my "Personal Assistant (PA)". (Of course He's more than that! hehe)Why? Coz He arranges my schedule and the places that I am supposed to go, and the things I'm supposed to do for Him. Well, sometimes I act smart.. Trying to do all on my own strength. Hence, I stumble or fall at times. But He offers His hands, picks me up and reminds me that this journey is not for me to go through(walk) alone. Oh how it comforts me!

So tomorrow's no doubt gonna be a super hectic (Fri)day, but I wanna enjoy my day at the same time!

"You will keep in perfect peace

him whose mind is steadfast,

because he trusts in You."

Isaiah 26:3 (The Bible)

How awesome my life would be, only if I had superpowers!

2009-11-17T03:39:00.000-08:00

Parliment- A once (okay.. maybe a few.. ) in a lifetime experience. My advice; go if you ever get a chance. Seriously =)

Hello everyone! :))

How are you doing? I hope all is well! =)

I wanna always try to remember to thank God at all times! Thank God for the time to hang out at Mid Valley yesterday, with awesome people from MYPG and meeting new faces from Monash Uni! I totally enjoyed especially the time spent over the lunch table @ Spaghetti Grill. Talking on personality tests and seeing different personalities and characters especially some was entertaining. And I as my personality tells, am a pretty quiet one. ;D

Haha..

Things I've accomplished today:
Updated 3 blogs- Segi CF, WiFi Camp, and mine! whee~
Sent emails to thank those who dropped by CF last 2 Fridays
Sent out emails for meeting time
Sorted out if there's quiz for Intercultural Comm.
And now... Re-check powerpoint slides for class tmr.

'I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me"

Jesus is the source of my superpowers! Though I get tired of doing soo many things at times *I'm just a human*, but when I fix my eyes on Jesus, He takes me higher than I think I could ever achieved. When I fix my eyes on tiredness and obstacles/ hardships, tiredness and staying at the same spot is where I will always be. Never know what I can do or what I cannot do... Unless I do and obey what God calls me to do. And of course, put my full trust in Him. Easier said than done. But possible! Nothing is impossible with God, that is!

Straight to the core of my heart

2009-11-01T01:31:00.000-07:00

Today at church, God reminded me that my securities should be found in Him. Not on friends, not on $$, not on my own self, and also worldly things that are temporal. My trust must be on God ALONE.

Well, sometimes I forget very fast. So, I need to blog it here. Lol.. Sometimes I know something is not right in my life, but I don't know which part or area. But when God speaks and convicts, it goes straight to the core of my heart. Here, He starts revealing what is wrong with my life. Which areas of my life that is ugly and not pleasing to Him. And His unfailing and big, deep love fills and overflows me too.

Awestruck by my Daddy! =)

Back to assignments. Oh and do you wanna know the proverb created by me when you face assignments? hahaha. Chiaoz! ;)

'God Is Not Boring" - John Piper

2009-10-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt reading the Bible can be so boring? Or have you ever felt God is not a fun God, but rather a strict God who's yes is yes and no is no?

I've not been spending much time with God recently. I don't really know why till I start to check myself inside. Part of it, I think I'm getting lazier. Another part of it, I feel reading the Bible is a commandment, a must do as a Christian to grow. There are times where I fell in love reading the Bible when God shows how real He is. When He starts showing you part of the Bible that you thought you will never understand, when He rebukes or shows you what have you done wrong, when He inspires you with His words, when He gives you words of encouragement when others around you are not supportive or encouraging. When you think no one cares, no one knows, God says He cares, He loves you and He is watching over everything in your life. Even the times you just stand and sit, He knows. That is (my and our) God.

This week I'm feeling doing things much routine-ly, if there's such a word. And throughout the days in this week, God reminded me that I should spend time with Him because of one reason- because I love Him. Not because it is a duty (which I know it shouldn't be long time ago.. but I fall at this trap again and again at times) and because it is a commandment. A must do. I don't like being forced to do something; I like to do it because I love doing it! It's me! And God wants the same of me too. Just like how I like to do a thing- I do it with passion, with love, with a heart so willing; this is how God wants my attitude to be like- because I love God. So simple, yet maybe humans or myself makes it complicated.

If you are trudging along, believing you have to give, have to read the Bible, have to pray, have to walk in the fruit of the Spirit, I encourage you to stop thinking you have to do anything. You will discover that God will give you the grace to want to do the things that lead to a victorious life in Him.

Some Christians want to make a law our of studying the Bible or spending a certain amount of time with God. But we should be motivated to read God's Word and spend time with Him because of our love relationship with Him, not because of a commandment to do so.

Jesus said, "If you (really) love Me, you will keep (obey) My commands" (John 14:15). What He really meant was, "If you love Me and walk in fellowship with Me, you will keep My commandments." If you concentrate on loving God, then keeping His commandments will become a natural part of what you do. It is a promise He makes to you.

And do you know God is a creative God? How can I find new ways to praise Him- drawing a picture, writing a poem, compose a song perhaps?

Adapted from: http://www.weesdomofwords.blogspot.com/ (the words above in purple Italic)

The title of this post 'God Is Not Boring' taken from http://www.christianity.com/devotionals/desiringgod/11556565/

Cookie is it's name

2009-10-13T03:40:00.000-07:00

Just baked cookies! Doesn't taste as good as the first time I baked. Haha.. I tried to put in raisins... But unfortunately made it worst.. :( I tried making some with those sugary sweets but it melted. Didn't turned up the way I expected it to be. Shape... was horrible. But the taste...? Was nice honestly. Why can't I BAKE A COOKIE THAT IS NICE BOTH INSIDE AND OUTSIDE?

Guess I need more try outs. In other words, practise makes perfect.

Tomorrow's Children' Day! Yup, what has it got to do with me?... Anyway, thought of baking a big cookie with a big initial 'B' for my youngest brother. But it didn't turn out because of the sugary sweets i put in. Well oh well... guess got to find another way or thing to make him :D.

I know! Slurpee aka Big Gulp from 7-11.
Mum's not gonna be happy though.
But.. It's Children' Day after all.

HAPPY CHILDREN' DAY!!!

Colleges should start to celebrate Teenager's Day! Quick before I'm overaged.. please. =)

Please Forgive Me, Dear Lord

2009-10-09T11:00:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

I am sorry for being the disobedient kid that I am. I am sooo sorry God for not giving the tract to the person I'm supposed to give, led by Your Holy Spirit. I am frustrated, I am mad of myself! I don't know why I chose to ignore You when You are sooo real to me! Aarrggh... I am truly ashamed of myself. I am truly ashamed. God, I am sorry... Sorry to not do what You asked me to do. Again and again. How can this action be called a follower of God?

But deep down, You have never blamed me. Never condemned me. Never hated me or even hold back anything good from me. Your forgiveness and second chances are abundant. But Your heart cries out and longs for people who have not embraced Your love. Your heart chases after their heart. It's crazy to understand how long, and how deep is Your love for them! So much beyond what I can comprehend.

So here is the post of agreement. If i ever ignore You, remind me of this post. Bring me back here and remind me that You love and died for every one and everyone.

Your love is complete and everlasting, Jesus. <3

Purity isn't just about girls, but boys too!

2009-10-07T17:38:00.000-07:00

Hi! I just wanna share this dream that I had.

First scene: There is a group of people who were mostly girls unashamed talking to one another excitedly how they lost their purity. *Add in laughters and giggles in that situation* Then a girl and soon some of them from this group started to invite or ask a girl lets call her C who was not associated the group (who has not lost her virginity) to join them. This girl C stood up and said no! How can you all do such things?!? This girl C was the only one who was not yet influenced. Then she left them and went aside to the piano.

There's this second scene... In short, a guy who was sitted alone trying to control himself very hard. It seemed to be an almost big struggle to control himself than to let go of himself and be part of the others in the world around him. A girl came and tried to share a drink with him.. but he said No! Then the girl tried to persuade him (can't remember what she did...) and he said NO! The guy was trying to control himself as much as he is aware and could.

This dream is sooo different and unusual. That's why I'm putting it here coz there's understanding to the dream. It is like a life-lesson dream.. So, here, I'll share on what I think!

When it comes to the word purity, doesn't it somehow reflects more on women than men? Purity isn't just about girls, but rather both. Purity isn't just a matter of keeping your body as clean as possible, it's about watching what you think (your thoughts), what you say (your speech) and your doings daily (actions). The Bible says not to be conformed to the patterns of this world, but by the renewing of the mind through God's Word. Now, that's where the testing comes in right.. It is waaayyy easier to conform to the ways of the world than to stand firm and filling your mind with things that are good, encouraging, noble, true, pure.. It's easier to join a gang and be part of a gang, to feel accepted and not rejected... even when it requires you to compromise your values and faith... Will we be the one who will be laughing away and being part of the ugly side of the world, or will we be the one who will stand firm and say no to doing what is wrong??? It even comes down to something simpler; will we be found cheating in a class that's cheating, or will we be found blameless and fautless in a class that's cheating. In college, cheating is like such a norm! And sometimes, I ponder... If girls don't love themselves, don't love the body God has specially given them, who else would? Your friends? NO! Your family? No! Your future husband/wife? NO! It's YOU yourself!

We need to draw a line for our thoughts, actions, words and not cross over the line. As in set a standard of what you will do and what you will not do, what you will speak and what you will never speak etc. So that when a situation popped at your face, you wouldn't be thinking "Should I do this or not?" or "Should I say this?"... Even in friendships or relationships with the opposite gender, somehow, there should be a certain boundary and limit to not cross over with someone of the opposite gender.. We need to watch our actions constantly and ask ourselves what is the purpose or motive we're doing that. When we do ____ or say _______, what will they think? Will we cause them to fall or stumble?

Have you been let down by a person older than you before? Sometimes we place alot of expectations on people, how they should perform or behave and all we get is disappointment. Sometimes you can't expect a person that's 40+ to behave like their age. The person that'll make you down is yourself, because of your expectation of the person. I believe, age should not and never be the measuring bench for maturity and wisdom. It is found in person who is able to stay calm no matter what the circumstances may be, a person who is able to think and decide well, a person who is able to carry themself well in front of public and personal space, think and act reasonably and does not let their heart and emotions rule over what is right and what is wrong.

p/s: If this post offended you in a way, I'm sorry.. but this is a blog after all.

People don’t care how much you know, until they know how much you care.

2009-09-29T03:16:00.000-07:00

Jesus doesn’t just feel sympathy for the broken, He empathizes with us. In Mark 1:40, a leper kneeled before Him and begged, “If You are willing, You can make me clean.” Jesus, “moved with compassion,” responded, “I am willing; be cleansed.” What is amazing here is the fact that while Jesus could have just spoken a word of healing over the leper, He went one step further. He stretched out His hand to touch him (1:41). For a Jew to touch a leper was absolutely unthinkable. But such was Jesus’ compassion for the sick and rejected.

“Does Jesus care, when my heart is pained, too deeply for mirth and song? When the burdens press and the cares distress, as the day grows weary and long?” The answer is a resounding, “Yes! He does!” When we are afflicted with disease and pain, He cares. When wegrieve the loss of dear ones, He cares. When we are confused, desperately needing leadership, He has compassion for us. When we are mistreated, He feels for us. When we dredge ourselves into the mire of sin, He grieves over that disaster. When, in hardness of heart, we even hatefully oppose Him, He continues to feel for us. No wonder the “goodness of God” leads us to repentance (Rom. 2:4)! May we all say, “I will show compassion to others, because my Jesus first showed compassion to me” (1 John 4:19p).

Taken from http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/09/the-compassion-of-god/

Seasons of life

2009-09-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

Quoted from my youngest brother, Ben, who is 10 years old btw, after showing him the pictures below... This is what he said: "Even eggs have a life of their own." Haha.. That's a good one.

Anyways, I want to take this opportunity to thank my friends who have been with me by my side. I did not utter a single word of what I've been going through. But you all came to find me or ask me how I am at the right time. When I really, really needed a friend... you guys (friends) came flocking in. Wow.. Must be the hands of God behind it. Thank you so much, guys! Thanks, God!

Here's some pics to spice up my day, and I hope yours too =)

Oh nooo!!! Save me!

haha. er.. robbers?

i personally like this :)

blueks!

Awww...

'Don't kill me!"

:'( and :O

All of these pictures reminded me- I had 4 eggs in total for today. Yum!

Battlefield

2009-09-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

The battle belongs to the Lord! I need to get rid of all those 'dirts' that makes me unclean. Consecration-
willing to do whatever, wherever and whenever God wants them to do (which is a pure weakness of mine) is a must to be at the battlefield. I forgive those 'lies'. I let go of the things that I shouldn't be holding on to. I break the power of darkness in Jesus Name. I choose to set my eyes and my heart on King Jesus!

Going for ThePlan09. (click on ThePlan09 if you want to know what it is) Ahhh... *excited-ness!*

Have a wonderful Raya break! Take care!

Happy Day lyrics ;)

2009-09-16T09:37:00.000-07:00

Because you had a great day
You're taking one up
You sing a happy song just to keep it around

............................................................................

I had a grrr-eight day! :D

If only I can control my tongue

2009-09-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

"If you think you are being religious, but can't control your tongue, you are fooling yourself, and everything you do is useless. You must help needy orphans and widows and not let this world make you evil." The Book aka Bible

God, help me to control my tongue. Guard my tongue from slipping words that would not encourage others or will put someone down. Help me to show love and mercy to the people I meet each day, just as how You have shown me.

Blueberry crumble

2009-09-14T10:37:00.000-07:00

Was contemplating between leaving or removing, leaving or removing my previous post on my results. I can't imagine a person or my friend who has done well, better than mine has to say.. Lol.. And compared to my results... What is mine?

So, conclusion..

I decided to....

Leave it. Why? Coz it is the work and the grace (good things I don't deserve) of God. There's no reason why I should feel bad or embarrassed if there's someone who has done better than me, definitely there will always be. But this is me. My standard. I may not be the best. But I'm doing God's best. I hope. Haha. There is no reason for me to feel ashamed. My results, I hope will be a testimony of God's undeserved grace that I really, really don't deserve with the amount of effort I put in sometimes. I have to admit that there are times when I do assignments last minute or procrastinate. I am ashamed of myself at times for my attitude of procrastination, but nevertheless, I am proud of my God.

Anyway, I found a new interest. I think...

Baking?

I just found a pretty cool designer's cake website. http://cookingismypassion.blogspot.com/

Rocky sticks (My favourite) on cakes! Simple yet elegant.

Piggie cupcake? Haha! Pretty!

Or maybe I just love the designs?!?

Gotta give baking a real try... SOON!

Oven, here I come!!!

Pictures courtesy of http://cookingismypassion.blogspot.com/

Melissa is

2009-09-07T22:43:00.000-07:00

In need.... Of a hair cut

Thinking of..... Songs for worship for Sunday

Anticipating for.... More movies to watch

Praying hard..... That her mum will pay and let her go for keyboard class

Learning to..... Watch her tongue from saying words that are not encouraging

Craving for..... delicious ice-creams!

Anyone?

you're a star!

2009-09-03T21:54:00.000-07:00

Hello!

Having Coffee Jelly Frappucino at Starbucks Summit now. Waiting for the later class.

Anyway, results were out...
Summer 2009: Human Resource Management- A
Chemistry- B

A little disappointed for Chemistry. I wonder if anyone got an A for Chemistry. I wanna know who! =) If there is, a big congratz as you must have really really studied, understood every single possible facts and did very well! Chemistry was tough and a killer, but still thank God for giving me the strength to study till late nights, wisdom to grasp easily and awesome team mates who sail through storms with me.

I love God's Word especially in times when everything is against you, ( meeting assignments and projects due date seems impossible, not enough time to finish reading and understanding your textbooks for mid terms, finals, can't understand etc...) coz His Word gives me hope and encouragement. As I believe in His Word, and work (in this case study) as if I can finish whatever I think I can't finish in time, by faith I fix my mind and keep studying and studying or keep doing assignments even when it feels impossible to finish them... But as I study, God opens my mind and help me to understand fast and remember. And as I just keep doing my assignments believing I can finish it with God, at the end of the day, somehow whatever seems impossible is possible! Just have faith in God. And work/ study!

God's Word says: Faith without action (study) is dead. James 2:26

From the deepest depth of my heart, thanks God! I definitely couldn't have made it to the Dean's lists/ Academic Excellence Award for 3 semesters out of my 4 semesters in college. I am really, really amazed by You!

I hope these results ( at the bottom of this post)are good enough to glorify God. To me, it is God's grace, mercy and faithfulness that brought me through. I couldn't say more than God deserves the glory, honor and praise. My results may not be the best in ADP now, but I will work hard and try to be the best with God's help. I trust in Him that all things are possible. =)

Summer 2009- GPA: 3.3
Fall 2008- GPA: 3.5
Spring 2009- GPA: 4.0
Summer 2009- GPA: 3.5

So yeah, the results posted here are not meant to brag or whatever... but I hope to encourage all of you that really, with God, you can do all things!

Back to college,
Cheers

Secret #5

2009-08-25T04:49:00.000-07:00

Secret #5: Purity loves its Creator at any cost:

Even if it requires of you letting go your heart's desires, putting God first and trusting that He knows what is best for you; purity chases after a love relationship with Jesus first.

-from the book The Bride Who Wore White-

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2009-08-25T02:10:00.000-07:00

Had a wonderful weekend last week. Attended LYPG on Saturday morning, youth in the afternoon, badminton session with my CF friends in the evening and dinner after the oh-so -beautiful game at AC at night. I've improved in badminton after getting started on Saturday. how much? tiny weeny. better than before at least. lol.. It's been a loong time ever since my last proper badminton match. Oh well... Sunday?! No need to mention- church :) Caught in 3 things all at the same time from 9:30am-10:30am... Had to choose between those 3, but solved. Big thanks to Ong for taking over projector for me! XD Back home , thought of going to my piano teacher's house to practise but she was busy on that day. So, sent Su Ann home. Came home, had guests, dad's friends from Penang. Ate dinner and off to drop by grandma's house for a short while. The smile on grandma's face taking her out the other day to walk around at a mall was priceless!

Anyway, I just had my last piano class of my life this morning if I passed my upcoming piano exam this Friday. (Of course, there's still Diploma if I want.)... I don't know what to say... I don't think I am ready for it. But I'm not giving up till the very last minute. Gonna practise and practise and practise and give my best this Friday. Even if I failed, it's okay.. It's not the end of everything or my life. What I reap I sow. 50% of the students who sit for grade 8 comes out fail. That's how hard. And I only started learning the pieces 4 months ago.. When others have at least about a year to learn up... If I were given a choice, a year would be good, not 4 months! But I know I have the Holy Spirit. With God, I can do everything. But I need to practise! Faith without action is as good as nothing.

And today, she said my scales had improved though I did not practised much. I was suprised at my scales too. She also said to me, if I had practised like now since last time, then good lor. She sees me as putting alot of hardwork in my last minute effort.

I'm a one-one task person. I handle things one-by-one. That's when I set my mind and I will reach it. But when it comes to multitasking, it won't work as well as on a one-to-one task.

We were talking about my degree course, and she mentioned, piano also needs to study! And the thought came to me to perhaps google what are the characteristics of Barouque period and other periods to learn more and perhaps if able, add in to my piano pieces. Since it will help me in a bigger way in the future with more knowledge on these Baroque periods etc, why not learn as much as I can and do my best, instead of focusing of passing and passing, though I will still practise to passed.

I don't know la if I'm gonna pass or not... But God is still God amidst my failures and successes. He is great. sizeless, bigger than I can ever imagine. My heart will praise Him in good times and bad times. Blessed be His Name.

:)

au revoir et salut.

2009-08-11T02:52:00.000-07:00

Both of my friends are leaving for US. I know the both of them through CF in SEGi College SJ. These people have been the strong pillars to CF and they served God faithfully in many ways.

Jason Tham is his name. He is one of the funny people who makes CF livelier just by being himself. I look up to him for his love for God- simple and pure love for God. Always ready to serve at all times. I remember those times Ms. Jaime and myself trying to finish the booklet for camp- typing, found out something was missing or wrong, so retype, print, reprint, photocopy, and again, arranging, stapler-ing. While I, the new secretary at that time who was supposed to know how to do it along with Ms. Jaime, my CF advisor struggled and started getting a little panic as next day was camp already, Jason on the other hand came to help us as we didn't have enough people to help, and not only did he helped to solve the problem, he was so calm and somehow had his way in accomplishing the booklet. Pro man! And while we were tearing the papers into 2, he joked and asked us:

Jason: What do you call the person who tears?

Me: Uhm.. Tearer..?

Jason: No, terrorist.

And the 3 of us started laughing off..

This guy can do almost anything. Games, worship, tell jokes, study, eat, sing, secretarial work also can... I guess he never really limit what he can do. super flexible. awesome!

Hey Jason,

I'm so going to miss you when you go to US. No one will help me out to do my secretarial work anymore. lol.. just kidding. You are an awesome friend. You helped me out in sending Chemistry powerpoints when I really needed it for reference as I lost my pp in my pendrive. Anyway, you are really cool lah. To me, you are just you. You never try to be someone else. I have not heard you using any filthy language or bad words (so far). Nor have I ever seen you bragging or flirting around with lecturers. You worked hard in your studies and you are disciplined. I pray you will keep holding on to God when you are in US. All the best in your future undertakings! See you when you are back in 2 years! God bless!

This is Jasmine Teh. Passionate, God-fearing, caring, likes to camwhore, shopping queen are some words to describe her. When i first entered college, she was one of the first Christians I know. She was like a big sister to me somehow in college. Once when I was trying to sell church carnival coupons to her to raise funds for new church building, without hesitating she bought it. And it really surprised me at her heart for God. Though I may not know her so well and spent much time with her in college, she is still one of the who has an amazing love for God that is also shown through the way she lives her life. Like Jason, she too has her own principles and will not compromise her faith for any other things. God bless you and watch over you every single moment in US. Take care! xx

Au revoir et salut.

which means goodbye and take care in French.

Gonna miss both of you!!!!!!!!

Going on beyond my wildest dreams

2009-08-06T12:04:00.001-07:00

New challenges arrive. Have you ever done something which all this while you were just wishing you can do this or never believed you could actually do it as it is beyond your wildest dreams, but you dare not do it coz it's simply what you are not good enough at or not where your main talent lies or you care about what others think about you?

I think I've done that. Been through many similar cases.

I dare not even think where I am right now and the things that I am doing and going to do. It's beyond my wildest dreams! But it's a life full of challenges, full of surprises, anticipation, dreams, going to lands you never thought you would step foot in! All these involve risks and taking a step or steps out of your own comfort zone- a place you get so comfortable and complacent, where everything is fine, perfect, absolutely lovely for you. It's like you are living in bungalow house, and you think that's the best... but the truth is if you are willing to open your eyes and look out, you will see and know that there is a bigger house than a bungalow. This is just an example I can think of at this point of time. hahah..

Telling the truth being out of the comfort zone is never comfortable. That's why it is out of the comfort zone! But no pain, no gain right... Likewise, it is so hard to comprehend at times when God asked you to do something which you so easily wonder and ask "Why me?!" "Why not Sharon or Matt? Why ME?!?" "God, it's crazy! How in the world am I going to do it?" "I don't like this! It hurts. It's embarassing." "There's other people better than I am..." And also, one thing I learnt, if you don't want to do what God has called you to do, He can find other people. It is us who will be in the losing end coz we will lose out on something God has for us if we were to take that step of faith to say yes to Him. God believed in you that you can do what He has called you to do, or else why did He find you? He called, He will give us what we need to accomplish it. *Speaking loud and clear to Melissa Ong* ;p

I realized if God called you to do something, He has a plan for your life, which you might not see it now or understand no matter how deep you try to imagine or think, but God really does have a plan. As I take the step of faith to the things God is calling me to, I pray I will be faithful and will not lose by giving up one fine day. It's hard for me. Real tough. I told God the other day that I didn't know serving You could be this hard. Sometimes, it's the people. Sometimes, it's yourself- getting over fears, unwillingness to put God first above your agendas, time and other excuses.

But I know and pray one day, I will stand before God and proudly tell Him with joy that I've accomplished His purpose for my life and have been the person He has created me to be. Though there's pain in the offering, my comfort is God is there for you.

*Leading worship in the main service on Sunday. First time. God bless me and be with me. May people be touched and experienced God's sweet love in a wonderful way. God be lifted up most high. And last Sunday, I unlocked a treasure from a song. It's when you are at the lowest place- down at Jesus' feet, that is actually the MOST HIGH place. *From the song No Higher Calling- Down at Your feet O Lord, is the most high place*

GBU and me too. In need of God's blessings. Scared.. lol :)

Thanks a million!

2009-08-06T10:19:00.000-07:00

HELLOOO!!!

How are you guys doing?!? Well, though I was away from blogging last month (except for SEGi Revo posts), but I do read your blogs as often as I can. =)

July was a pretty good month. (yay!) very hectic, no doubt to the point where I almost couldn't find a slot to go out with my bestfriend, Hannah who came back from Australia. But I did! *which I uhm didn't do flyering for SEGi Revo for that day.. My CF president aka boss, Terrence helped me out on that day. Thanks so much man! But I don't think he will read this. But thanks so much, or else I can't go shopping with bestie!! Besides meeting up with Hannah, July was full of wonderful moments- road trip after CF, Revo meetings, dinner at IKEA, trips to SEGi KD, CF, many captured and uncaptured moments as well. Not to mention, assignments and finals in the same month! Crazy, really crazy as I think back. But every moment captured and uncaptured was truly worthwhile, being with different people and good friends, of course. ;)

In short, I just wanna thank everyone who made my birthday so special and memorable to me. It was heartfelt, every single thing big or small YOU did for me, it was totally heartfelt. Every sms-es, every phonecalls, every facebook birthday comments and wishes, (friendster too ;p)pressies, blog posts and others which I might have left out, it meant a million stars to me! You lighten up my day! Not to forget the pretty shocking surprises- birthday surprise at my house by my friends, McD... Thanks alot from the bottomest bottom of my heart!

Jason and Ms. Jaime!

Lunch @ Sushi King with Jason and Ms. Jaime. So thoughtful and sweet of them. <3>

Teatime/dinner with mum and bro. Sakae Sushi, Pyramid. Oh and did I mention I love unagi! Teppanyaki! My new favourites! ;)

Big thank you shout out to Terrence and Sandra! This birthday I realized my family didn't sing birthday song for me as we didn't put up candles on the slices of cakes they bought. Anyway, I refused to have a big cake when my mum asked. A struggle to finish most of the time also. ^ So yeah.. back.. Terrence and Sandra came over to my house to surprise me at 11:30pm. Sandra tried calling my hp many times but couldn't as I was using it. So Sandra called my house phone and kononnya need to talk something important to me. And as I opened the gate to meet her, there came the both of them singing in the middle of the night when neighbours are most likely to be found sleeping. I blew the candle on the lovely doughnuts from Krispy Kreme. It was really "awww..." moments. Touched deep down inside. hahaha! *shy face*

And no need to mention, my awesome youth friends who gave me a lovely surprise just to make me feel touched and loved on Saturday. And I do really feel loved on that day. Thanks, ya'll! <33

If I could sum my whole birthday in one word, BLESSED would be the word! Truly blessed. And as much I thank all of my lovely friends, I want to thank my Father in Heaven who loves me so much more and He truly made me feel loved and special on my birthday too. How?!? Secret. Ask me personally, I'll tell. Without Him, I know my birthday wouldn't be as it was. Surely it was Him who was behind the scenes. Giving my friends thoughts to remember and celebrate my birthday. I choose to believe this way. I know He was working behind the scenes deep down in my heart. =)

Signing off.

Yay! My first August 2009 blog! Felt like ages since the last time I really blogged for real. ;p

rEVOLution

2009-07-15T11:15:00.000-07:00

Come for SEGi rEVOLution PARTY!!! ;D

For more details, please drop me a comment or visit http://segirevolution.blogspot.com/

Let the rEVOLution begins.... with me :))

* Try reading the capital letters backwards... And be amazed at the word you see! :))*

SEGi Revolution PARTY (concert)

2009-07-12T04:34:00.000-07:00

Wanna see change in your college?

Wanna live a life of impact and influence?

Then you are at the right place.

SEGi Revolution P.A.R.T.Y is storming Kota Damansara this coming Friday!

Date: 17th July 2009, Friday
Venue: Auditorium A, SEGi College Kota Damansara
Time: 6:30pm-9:30pm
Price: Free admission (just be there)
Transportation: Buses provided from SEGi College Subang Jaya. Free of charge too. ;p

What to expect?!? : A time of awesome worship from ACTS Band, real messages, freebies giveaways (T-shirts, CDs, cool designed notepads etc), straight from the heart performances by SEGi KD and SEGi SJ. And not to mention, fabulous SEGi Revolution t-shirts will be sold on that day.

So, what are you waiting for? Decide now. And I am sure you won't regret a single minute being there.

Below, is the front and back of our SEGi Revo flyers. You can use it to invite your friends. Please check out http://segirevolution.blogspot.com/ (just click on the given link and it will direct you there. :) ) for more info regarding this event. Or email segirevolution@gmail.com . There's many ways you can contact us. 010-2766199

Hope to see you there!

It's a happy day!

2009-07-04T11:09:00.000-07:00

Hellooo!

Life couldn't be better than this. Haha. Attended youth camp meeting. Youth service. (Reynolds came! Finally :) as well as Billy and Daren! cool.. Thank you! ) Through The Roof 2 Concert at HSG. Met up with Hannah. Dinner after mum picked me up. Awesome possum!

:)

pretty pink!

2009-07-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hellooo!

I've changed my blog's background color! XD
Haha..
I got too tired with the old one.
So I decided to just sit down and take the effort to do some changes to my blog.
Though I hardly have time for myself anymore these days!
But at least I'm happy now- with the change! ;p
Changes are good; most of the time? haha
I've got to learn to chill. Teach me, someone? Please? hahaha! jk.. though i seriously need to just sit down and at least take a moment to dream. hahaha =)

p/s: How's my new design for my blog? ;)

p/p/s: I sometimes wonder if anyone still reads my blog. I hardly update. Also, my chatbox has been pretty silent. Especially after I got spammed. But I am not offended seriously. It's always how you choose to view it. Ask me personally if you want to know how I viewed it! I'd be glad to tell you! lol

Jogging out. Take care! God bless!

:)

=)

2009-06-18T04:15:00.001-07:00

I understands how it feels when one keeps dropping by a blog, and the next thing you see.. is the same post you dropped by last time- eventhough it was ages ago. I am sorry for the lack of updates in my blog. triple sorry..

A short update on my life:
1. I don't know where should I start
2. I guess I'll start from here- MYPG. Attended it after knowing it's where God wants me to be on that day. Made commitment to Him. Got helpful and encouraging conversations. Must be God who was in the middle planning this to take place.
3. College life
- Praise God for good results last sem. 4.0. Definitely not what I deserved. God's grace and mercy.
- Thank God for friends. Fee Vien especially. She has been there since day 1 I started college. This sem is the first sem not being in ALL of the same classes with her. Feels something missing at times. haha! what to do... =p
- Taking Chemistry and Human Resource Management. 300++ chemistry questions to be completed in 6 days! 4 weeks in a row of campaign also for chemistry. We're doing on food chemicals. Thank God for Revathi, Ai Li, Era and Puteri. They are awesome so far. :) HR Management. Also another craziness.. 2 big assignments with a total of 50 marks out of 100. not going into details! praise God for guiding me to take 2 subjects this sem. Gotta excel in my studies and at the same time serving God- which is always worth it though can be time consuming and energy draining. But it's a joy and honor.
4. CF. Starting a prayer group. Outings once a month. Meeting. in general.
SEGi Revolution P.A.R.T.Y. Alot of planning. And filling in the gaps. God is at work and in control. I like it when He is the big boss overlooking everything. :)
5. Youth and church. I have really awesome and super fun friends there. People who just know how to have fun! love them! <3 God has been faithfully speaking to me every week since porbably a month or 2 ago through the simple messages. Sometimes I just couldn't focus or I am just distracted.. That is when He steps right it and say He wants to speak to me. And so, I try to listen. God can really use anybody even the normal ppl you see in your daily life to speak to you. But sometimes, we've got to be sure if it's from Him or not. ;p Also, a place where my weaknesses are shown. He says my weaknesses must be shown so that His strength can be seen. It is not easy I can tell you! But if that is what He wants to do and use, use it then. I still need to learn alot on surrendering to God everything. Like everything.

I believe I have more to say. I've gtg now.. chiaozz..

mentol lampuku (my lightbulb)

2009-06-07T10:10:00.000-07:00

Kaulah kekuatan hidupku

Memberikanku harapan

Yesusku percaya

Dan ku mencintaiMu

Kaulah pelita hidupku

Menyinari jalanku

Sepanjang hidupku

Ku 'kan mengikutiMu

Yesus Kupercaya, THE ACTSPERIMENT 2.0, ACTS Church

Ku percaya padaMu. Ku serahkan segala yang ku ada untukMu, Yesus. Dan ku mahu dan akan mencintaiMu segenap hatiku, seumur hidupku.

Higher :)

2009-05-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

"Rain and snow fall from the sky.
But they don't return WITHOUT watering the earth
that produces seeds to plant and grain to eat.

That's how it is with My words
They don't return to Me
WITHOUT doing everything I send them to do."
Isaiah 55:10-11

Let it be my desire to have Your will in my life. And a reminder to me that You're ways are not my ways; and Your thought are neither my thoughts. For Your ways and Your thoughts are always, always higher.

:)

3 Letters

2009-05-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

I hardly write on my blogs posts that has much of my feelings and thoughts for quite some time. This post will be one of my firsts.

Anyway, today, something really unpleasant happened. I don't really want to go into details- But one thing for sure the devil is always trying to cause alot of disharmony, disunity, arguments, misunderstandings in family, circle of friends, relationships etc... and if we are not careful and alert, we might just fall right into his plans. And now thinking, that is what exactly what he wants to do in my life right now-stopping me or at least slowing me down for now. I almost fall into his trap in a very rational manner. But thank God for sending someone to remind me of this once again. Trust me, there are so many things satan is doing. The more you're on fire for God, the more he'll try to stop you or at least slow you down...

Letter #1:

Dear someone oh-so-precious,

You were someone I looked up to somehow in a way because you are wise in thinking and in making decisions. And most of all, you loved me. What you said just now hurts me. Even more when it comes from you, who is uber close to me. I kept quiet because I respected you and I wanted to know what and how you were thinking. I really respect you and that is why I kept quiet and let my tears flow even though I knew I could have answered you. But I've learnt today to speak up what's running in my head when it is necessary, all for the betterment of us in the big picture. I really hope you would understand me.

Oh and it doesn't really matter if heaven has real gold or whatsoever because it really doesn't matter to me at all, you. I loved God because I know Him and experienced Him and that's what makes me- me, now.

I still love you anyway.
:)

Letter #2 :

Dear College,

Could I have another month of semester break please? Pretty please... I didn't really do the things I wanna and planned to do for this semester break yet. I had so many things on my shoulders to carry that I didn't really have much time for my ownself. Your kindness is very much appreciated.

Yours sincerely,
Me. :)

*Maybe I should just dream on~ ;)
edited: It's okay. I take back my words. I would DEFINITELY (yes, definitely. ;) )love having more time to do the stuffs I wanted to do, but I guess in the end of the day, it's a question of what impact it'll bring. Temporal or eternal effect? ;)

Letter #3:

Last but not least my very dear God,

After coming back from practise and after what happened, I loved YOU even more! You are the best, God. When things aren't so pretty, You were always right there comforting me. I want to learn to praise You at all times though sometimes I am just so blinded by what's happening around me.But I know it won't be for long because You will lead me back to You. Just in the nick of time. Hehe! ;) You've blessed me with so many wonderfully awesome best friends, and I thank You soo much for them! but You are my ever bestest friend. My SVEBFF! super, very, ever... Many friends come in and out, but you're always in lah, God. Sometimes, some of my friendships- especially real good ones, just crumpled like that. And I feel uber sad. But I always want to remember that You allowed everything (even and more so the bad ones) that happens in my life to happen for good even when I can't see it. So, I'll put my hope and trust in You. Coz Your Word says all things work together for good (Romans 8:28). So, Lord, You have every area of my life, my friends, family, studies, future, career and everything that I could and could not think of right now.

Jesus, take the wheel.
Take it from my hands.
Coz I can't do this on my own.

Jesus, Take The Wheel
Carrie Underwood

Love,
You-know-my-name

Lovely pies

2009-05-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

From L to R: Ying Yin, Soo Chin, Poh Ling and me. And yes, they are my awesomest and wonderful friends. :)
* Not only them of course. If you're reading this, you are one.. Coz ppl who read my blogs care about me and my going on(s), yes?... haha. jk..

As promised in my previous posts, here are the pictures. More will be on facebook!

On a lighter note, I love listening to the song The Climb by Miley Cyrus for now!

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle

But sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb

The Climb, Miley Cyrus

On a goodbye note:

Have fun in Kampar, Ms. Tan Ying Yin! I/We (CCBC) know you can go through it even though life won't be so easy there. Ex-Service trainee mer.. :D Hehe!
And yeah, I will improve my Mandarin and you also improve your English too k? One day, I'll speak more 'complicated' Mandarin to you. Just wait... Haha! Take care!!!
Gonna miss you tonnes!
x

strawberry

2009-05-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

More of these pictures comin up real soon. ;)

Heavy Wed and Thurs awaiting this week! And Sat too?

Oh well, He makes all things beautiful in His time.

:))

H.B. Tiff and Ong! ;)

2009-05-13T10:53:00.001-07:00

=)

=D

Hello! :)

It has been a pretty loong time not updating my bloggie. Sorry.. :((
I don't know where to start... from my last post or just go straight to what's happening now.

Anyways, I'm having semester break for MAY! whee~ But pretty packed with activities or going outs with people and friends. I know I can say one thing- I love going out! I really love going out anywhere but obviously RIGHT places alright... haha!

Anyway, my cuzzy Michelle is going back to NZ. So, we the cousins had a farewell for her last Fri. The meeting point was my home. Had durians bought by Erik. Scrumptious, that's for sure. *thumbs up*

After that, we had mamak sessions. Eat, talked bout their younger days etc. My dad was there too btw. My dad and my cousins are really close. My dad was the one who took care of them when they were young, played with them, taught them to have fun... My dad clicks really well with them. That's why he is here in this COUSINS gathering! Proud of my dad in a way. Reached home at 2am. Sleepy. Found out something... My cousins are really cool! They're a hilarious bunch of people, crazy and pentingkan persaudaraan. Pentingkan persaudaraan... That's the most important. That's what I'm really proud of them.

BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUTS!!!

Blessed Birthday, Tiffany Kwong! :))

You're a really nice and sweet girl. Nice and friendly to everyone-both young and old. When people speak to you, they or at least their hearts are enlightened. You make the people around you happy. I hope you'll stay you and never change any good part of you. Keep having the heart to learn new things and also about God. I know He has great plans and future for your life. Stay close to Him, girl and He'll never let you down. oh and you are gorgeous inside out. xx.
:)

Left to right: Tiff and Ong :)

And Blessed Belated Birthday, Ong Hui Zhe! :))

You are... a visionary. I believe God has placed soo many gifts and talents within you to use them for His glory. Continue to catch His heart. I pray God will show you the great plans that He has for your life in His time. I know He will. :D Stay close to Him. And don't forget He is always with you wherever you are. Keep walking steadfastly in Him. And be the man He wants you to be. You're an awesome and God fearing guy. May God continue to use you mightily in your college and else where to be the salt and light for Him. Ong, you rock! :)

Looking forward for tomorrow. Day with my girlfriends CCBC members. They ROCK my world in NS! I love them so very much!Hehehe!

When was the last time I remember? hahaha

2009-05-07T08:42:00.000-07:00

I remembered mentioning in one of my previous posts that I can't imagine how big God's hands is when I look at mine; and therefore how big God really is! *Something like that*

Today, I learnt something which I've forgotten... God is a Person who does not have a body. God is also a Spirit. Unlike us, we as God's creations have a body and God's Spirit lives within us.

I think I have made God too small in my eyes. I tried to measure how big He is. I know it can't be measured but I was thinking the other time how BIG God really is as in His whole self (body). And I realized He is soooo BIG that even the biggest body can't contain Him; that's why God doesn't have a body! Unlike us who are so small and tiny when we see from God's point of view.

Which is a good reminder. :) Just got back from music practice. And during worship time in music practice I was also remindered that the God I serve is BIG, Mighty, awesome God. Sometimes I need to be reminded that God is way bigger and I should not make Him too small in my eyes. I can go on writing... but I'll end here. And yes, also reminded He'll never leave me nor forsake me. What a promise. Oh and the power of prayer... Do you know when you pray you are being God's vessel... Just now, we sang a song called Everytime I Pray. And something hit me and this came to me. "Do you know God answers you prayers when you pray?" Like the song we sang just now..., everytime we pray, we move the hands of God. We are God's vessels for Him to use and move. Keep prayin'!

p/s: Its so easy for me to blog when its about God... but when it comes to updates about what's going on in my life even though there's so much happening... I need motivation. lol. help!

When life's road gets a lil bumpy...

2009-04-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

When life's road gets a little bumpy and harsh...

With no clear sign boards to show us the right way to go.

It makes living in this world one of the last things in mind.

Sometimes, life is filled with so many choices.

That we don't know which one to take.

With the hope that we won't end up to the road of Neverland.

But on the bright side, at least we can choose.

And sometimes life feels like a rollercoaster ride.

It takes our emotions to the highest and also even the lowest point.

More like potential and kinetic energy if you get what I mean.

Or the boiling point for water.

Or worst, salt; which exceeds the limit.

Sometimes...

Just sometimes, things just don't go right no matter how hard we try and try. Not very much the way we want. But isn't that life? Well, at least for me, I spell that life.

Have you ever felt this way?!?

I have! Hehe. But God has proven that He is right there when we needed Him the most. He's there all the time in fact, just that we tend to take God for granted in our lives. But God is faithful. God is a God who is close to us and answers our prayers. Let Him be your strength when you are weak. This is when His strength is made perfect- right in our very own weaknesses. And remember, Jesus is there to hold you. :)

A song I've found while searching for lyrics of other songs. Though I never heard this song before. But the words are just too meaningful. :)

"Sometimes you're weak and weary
Feels like your heart is breaking
Nobody close enough to ease your mind
Seems like the night is falling
The darkness has you crawling
You wonder if you'll ever reach the light
But you've got to know that
The Father's always there by your side

Chorus:

We will overcome heartache and sorrow
We will overcome all the pain in this world
We will rise above the cares of tomorrow
We will overcome
We all get disillusioned
With all of life's confusions
Sometimes we simply have to walk by faith
The road may not be easy
But there is hope and healing
Remember help is just a prayer away
So don't be afraid
He will give us all the strength that we need

When we struggle thru the hard times
There's a peace that comes from the Lord
Just remember He is faithful
So believe and trust in Him more
And don't be afraid
He will give us all the strength that we need. "

We Will Overcome by Jaci Velasquez

# Take life easy. God didn't make life too hard that you can't overcome. He has a reason for everything He does. Perhaps to make us stronger and stronger. Life's lessons are ALOT. Alot wey... We'll never learn it all in a day or in a month. It takes a lifetime. Lifetime... But throughout this hard fought journey, rest assured you're not alone and God is always with you. This is His promise. And you bet, His promise is complete and unchanging. :)

Impossible?!?

2009-04-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

NOTHING is impossible with GOD! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. =)

<-- Luke 1:37. The verse I will hold on tightly to again and again with my hope, faith and trust only in Jesus.

Tell me... What is impossible? ;)

LOL!

2009-04-15T10:22:00.000-07:00

*click on the picture for better view* Enjoy! :)

It's okay... :)

2009-04-11T03:30:00.001-07:00

It's okay... :)

I'm pressed but not crushed
I may be persecuted, but not abandoned
I may be struck down but I am certainly NOT destroyed.
I'm blessed beyond the curse for His promise will endure
His joy is gonna be my strength.

Though the sorrow may last for the night
But joy comes in the morning! :)

It's really okay. Because no matter what happens, God is always here with me. Revenge or hard feelings need not be there coz it is God who judge. Not others.

Overcoming evil with good. :)

Into Your hands, I commit my circumstance to You.
Jesus, take the wheels.
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own.

You are my strength and my shield. My heart trusts in You, and I am helped. Psalm 28:7

*Updated: Well, now I know why I went through that. Coz God wanted to let me feel what He went through when He was still on earth 2000 years ago. And what I've experienced... was only a glimpse. Imagine how much Jesus actually went through... Sigh..

Bought Over :)

2009-04-10T11:18:00.000-07:00

Just a few hours ago, I had a wonderful conversation or so called discussion with Fee Vien and Hon Wei. And it made me realized and reminded that God is such a patient and faithful God. God sees us the way He created us. Hon Wei gave an example: God sees us as Fee Vien, Melissa etc. He doesn't see us like... "Here's a man. Here's another man." I simply cannot comprehend how great God's love is for us that we are sooo precious in His sight!

A phrase that I read today: The whole universe fits into the palm of God's hands! Imagine.. Not just the earth, but the 8 other planets plus the stars that God has called each by its own name and the galaxies... All into God's palm?!? How amazing... When I look at my own palm, I cannot comprehend how BIG God's palm is and so, how BIG my God really is! Definitely, beyond what my mind can comprehend. :)

This Easter, I am reminded once again of God's Love. The Love that gave His only Son to redeem us from our sins. That because of us, He who was rich became poor and we who were poor became rich.

Lord, I am extremely sad

when I think of what You've gone through for me!
The pain and agony must have been so real to You

even to this very day
But I thank you so so much, Lord
For the price You've paid for me on the cross

For the stripes, condemnation and rejection
I am humbled by Your saving grace
That because of You
I am free
I am redeemed
I am restored
I am healed
That because of You

I have victory in life's battles
In You, I celebrate Life
A victorious and abundant life!

All I know is...

My Redeemer Lives

Both now and forevermore.
I love You, Jesus

From the bottomest bottom of my heart

but still...

You loved me so much more!

I have more to say on what we've shared in cell group and what God impressed on my heart. We shared about commited lives today. But will not be blogging about it now. Sleeping time :)

But here's the verse that God reminded me of: The eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully commited to Him. 2 Chronicles 16:9

p/s: I think my heart is beating for my nation? Or perhaps I should say, I know... How come?!?

I think I'm crazy..

2009-04-09T08:55:00.000-07:00

There's two things that I'm really concerned for now. I don't know why, but I'm feeling so much for it. The first one is for the less fortunate ppl. Ppl who are poor, disabled... I really admire and salute ppl who are disabled and yet not use it as an excuse of not being able to do things like normal ordinary ppl. Ppl who still choose not to give up, but rather press on in spite of their very circumstances. One of the people I know of is Yvonne Foong. http://www.yvonnefoong.com/ and http://www.youtube.com/v/RmDjIMZPg3Y&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0

Above: Picture taken with yvonne foong after purchasing a tee from her. ^

The second one is injustice. Yesterday, I accidentally tuned in to a tv show called Bersamamu on TV3. It's a show that shows the real lives of people who are facing troubles in their lives be it finances and whatsoever. It is much worse than an ordinary live. Those ppl are so poor. Their one day's pay is only enough to eat for one day. It's like the peribahasa kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang. I hope those ppl who are ruling this country to please wake up. Don't continue to sit there and be blinded by other issues that are not as important as taking care of the welfare of the rakyat. The whole main point of having a Government is to rule a country; to watch out the needs of the ppl. What if you could gain the whole world but lose your soul? Stop corruption. Stop taking things or possessions that does not belong to you. Take on integrity. No matter what happens in the future, a person with integrity would never fail you in the long run.

That's why I really look up to ppl with integrity. =)

Helium balloons flying in the sky

2009-04-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

"good friends?" hhmm.. lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL BRO!!!

*Belated*

Stay happy-go-lucky, stay caring, stay funny, stay talkative, stay Ben!

You've brought much joy, giggles and laughter to this family!

WE LOVE YOU!!!:)

p/s: A simple post. Gonna let him read this. It's for him after all :)

The Revolution :)

2009-03-31T10:11:00.000-07:00

Just got back from a CF Camp themed Revolution. It's a CF Camp organized by SEGi Subang and SEGi Kota Damansara joined in. And yes, had a great time being refreshed, recharged and re-energized there. Words can't explain the simple yet wonderful time of worship, though not a very huge number of ppl but yet genuine fellowship, and most of all, the ever amazing and loving presence of God. Well pics do tell a good story on the whole camp, but unfortunately, no pics for now... Need time to upload. Plus, my laptop's down. =(

I'll talk more bout the camp plus pictures perhaps the next post or next few posts! So how's life ppl? Great? Awesome? Yes?!? Hope everythings going on well for all of you. :)

Though I said I wanna share in the next post or next few on camp, somehow rather I feel the urge to do it now. Okay... So, some of our main objectives of having this camp is:

to foster and tighten bonds among SEGi students
to provide a healthy option for students to build friendships where NO drugs, alcohols, drugs or even cigarette is involved as campers are not allowed to do these during the duration of the camp
challenge students to leave a legacy in the college after they graduate and not to just come to college with a 'tidak apa' attitude.

Again I gently repeat, it's only some of our main objectives. There's more...But these are sufficient here. =p Anyways, we really had great bonding sessions! And I really love the food at the place we stayed- El Sanctuary. More info on the place I stay, you can check it out at http://www.elsanctuary.com/

As aforementioned, the theme for this camp is Revolution which means change. Change through our actions, words and thoughts. We had a down-to-earth and humourous speaker- Elder Kien Yiak, one of the starters of ACTS Church Subang shared with us his life; how God used him and turned him around. From a guy who was once a nobody, an ordinary guy who didn't do well in his studies, to pursuing Accountings course in his higher education (the thing is he doesn't want to attend classes coz he thinks he's smart, so he goes to college just to sit for exams), to making and selling scrumptious carrot-cupcakes with no customers for 2 weeks at a flea market and being rejected by big F&B companies such as San Francisco because he couldn't produce in big quantity and doesn't have a proper kitchen *back then, he made carrot cupcakes from his pastor's house*, to answering the call of God in his life to co-start a church with Pastor Kenneth Chin. And now, just look at the growth of that church! Alongside, he shared alot of funny and lame stuffs that happened to him and that reminded us that he's just like any one of us- weird in our own ways but yet are usable by God.

I have to say I am very blessed and encouraged by this camp! Each and every session in this camp was inspiring and enjoyable at the same time. God's presence, no doubt has been consistently there. I've learnt so many things. 'God has plans for you.' It hitted me so hard just on this sentence alone.

::The main things I learnt in camp::

#1: God has plans for you
#2: Realized that many of us will only do things where we are good, and don't do things where we are not good. But God wants to do so much more in your life. Especially in the areas where we are not good in.
#3: When God says you are good enough, you are good enough.
#4: God has not given us a spirit of fear. Fear does not comes from Him. If fear does not comes from God Himself, then guess who?
#5: Don't settle down so easily. People in this generation tend to give up easily. Don't be discouraged. Be encouraged.
#6: Fire/passion, commitment and discipline are very important if you want to achieve your dreams. When you fall, that's where the discipline comes in to say 'It's okay. I will rise up again.'

I'll stop here for now. At the camp we are constantly reminded that revolution (change) , first begins with us. As the famous quote goes: Be the change you want to see in the world!

p/s: My winning group for games- The Trasformers! And our tagline based on our theme Revolution: Transformers change the world! *Super proud. hehe*

All geared up for campus life! <3

Celebrating life!

2009-03-11T03:50:00.000-07:00

Edited: Warning ahead!!! Long post, ppl! Just to let you know. =)

Hello, you!
*big grin*

So sorry for not updating.. Alot of things had happened throughout my M.I.A. moments. Mid-term exams, hanging out time with friends, responsibilities to carry out and daily activities to be done every single day. I'm up to alot of things this year but it's all for good coz God has His purpose for them. But the truth is... I truly am enjoying my life, and in everything I'm doing, every moment of it! I'm LOVIN' IT!

Serving God is my life. Without Him, Melissa Ong is nothing. Truly nothing. I must share, I am so thankful to my mum for one thing. Not for bringing me to this world ( though it is also something I should be thankful for), but for bringing me to know Jesus. This is utmost important. I am super proud to say I am a child of God and will not be ashamed of Him. =)

I thank God for many things in my life.
I think it would be blessings I never thank Him often enough or have taken it for granted.

Firstly, my family (parents and bros) who have seen me grown pysically (though still skinny.. =( ), mentally and spiritually. These ppl I have taken them for granted at times coz they are the very ones whom I see every day but one of the bunch of ppl I treasure the most! Ahh.. Thanks Lord!

My friends- kindergarden, primary and secondary school friends, classmates, church friends, NS and etc. Friends who have been with me, encouraged me, played with me ;) and influenced me to who I am this very day. Thank YOU so much, you all for just simply being, you! And that's what made me, ME! ;D
I thank God for teachers. Yes, you've heard that right. Haha. Especially those who have impacted me. Honestly, I enjoy seeing teachers who teach with all their heart (you know how few these teachers are, right?) and take care of their students needs as if they are their own children. Ms Menon, Cik ZAS, Mrs Rose.. I can name them coz there aren't many teachers who has those qualities as I 've mentioned above. And yes, I must thank God for Sunday school teachers and those teachers who have broought me up spiritually. There are so many in my life. Right from when I was around 7 years old till right now in church! Well, there's too many to name, but all I can say is thanks for being God's hands in teaching me, encouraging me in the knowledge of who our great God is. Truly your reward is unseen now, but great in heaven. =)

Last but not least, thank You, God for Your Spirit that's living in me. Thank You for Your covering, protection and Your unfailing and everlasting love for me! Thank You for holding my hands ever so dearly that whenever I fall, You are always there to pick me up. Thank You for allowing me to go through trying times, so that I would learn from my mistakes and able to encourage others who encounter the same thing and of course, to grow in my faith. To learn to trust in You and not just You giving in to me. I love You for that though it has never been pure easy to go through trials and testings in life. But truly I can testify that You have been with me when my pocket has a big hole (pok kai. haha), times when my studies take a rollercoaster ride- both good and bad results time, personal problems and worries and hurts. You, Lord meant the world to me. * And I'm sorry when I hold back my world from you at times without realizing*
Taking a step back.. Last word: Enjoy LIFE! Know Life itself. That's the best thing that can ever happen to you coz when you know Life (Jesus), it is indeed better than life. =)

Oh and I have this song in my mind. Just to share the verse:

Better than the riches of this world,

Better than the sound of my friends voices,

Better than the greatest dreams of my heart,

And that's just the start.

Better than getting what I say I need,

Better than living the life that I want to,

Better than the love anyone could give,

Your love is.

Better Than Life by Hillsong

And yeah, some of you may have thoughts running in ur head that my posts can be very 'ho-lee'; you know what I mean. But to me, God plays a major part of my life. Putting Him out is like not having life and having a meaningless life. So, I hope you can understand. I don't wanna have a separate blog just to share my life with Christ in the picture coz firstly, I don't think I have the time. One blog is already enough. Time time! See how often I update here. Haha. Secondly, two blogs on my life? No need lah! hehehe

WANNA SEE SOMETHING?!?

I hope you don't go... "What are those???" lol. These lil creatures as you can see are puppies yeah? Just so to mention in case you really don't know. And it is my joy to see them grow bigger and bigger each day! ;)

*Waves hand* Chiaozz

Missing you like crazy!!! =(

2009-02-19T07:58:00.000-08:00

I miss you very much, Hannah! You're one of the bestest girlfriend I ever had. Thanks for being a great blessing and encouragement to me! You've impacted my life to who I am today. And yes, you've added colours to my old school days! XD

It's crazy having to let you go... Just now, jc asked me. "How come I looked like I don't feel anything that my friend is going?" I answered, "You expect me to cry now?"
Okay.. Truth been spoken. Although I don't LOOKED like I've lost a friend, I totally FELT like I've lost one of the people who meant the world to me. I've cried several times. I've sobbed several times. Well, mum was right when she said I should feel happy for you that you are pursuing your studies at a higher level. At first, it didn't make sense that I should feel happy when my friend is leaving.. But now, I agree with her on this. Though I still don't feel totally happy inside yet honestly.

Anyway, I know that God will always be watching over you there in Australia. He is the One who will take good care of you and protect you while you are far far away from home. He has great plans for your life. And I pray that you will shine for Him wherever you are. Stay HOT in Him, hottie!

I'll miss you very very much! Sigh.. I already am!

<3>

Time of My Life =)

2009-02-15T08:06:00.000-08:00

Wonderful people of God! :) I thank God very much for these very people He has placed in my life during my 2 months + stint in National Service. They are the very people who encouraged, loved, cared and prayed for each other especially when any one of us were down, or faced difficulties in one way or another. We are the Kem PLKN Batu Jong Siri 5/Kump 2 *i guess* CFers! WE ROCK! no?! Haha.

Anyway, gonna keep the words in this post brief. So the pictures will do the rest of the work. ;)

Best pose of the year (Male) Lol.. =)

And best pose of the year (female) hehe.. They're gonna 'kill' me if they see this. hahah.

Dorm mate+ CCBC member ;) + CF friend + good friend=XIN HUI =)

semi failed shot i guess.. =(

Happy people :D

Wai Yan.. Awesome in the inside :)

Good brothers in NS.. the 'jokers'.. And clowns.. ppl who make CF livelier.. xp

Julian (Initial Ketua CF before Wai Yan took over after he left)

Food, food... Ah... Food... Starbucks!

Chocolate sprinkling time ;)

And lastly, the pic of us together in National Service.

Missing in this gathering: Eleazar, Wei Yee, Renee, Shen Yang. Unfortunately, 2 out of these 4 of them lare iving in perak =(

Happy Sunday! XD

Sweet 20~

2009-02-15T07:10:00.000-08:00

BLESSED HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, MY SUPER DEAR CUZZY WUZZY CUZ! ;)

Thanks for all the memories we have in growing up together. Thanks for playing with me! ;)Thanks for being such a sweet, lovable cousin who would cover up for me when I make mistakes.
Thanks for supporting me or my idea even when it is a lil (a lil only) crazy at times. hahaha ;)

I hope you had an AWE to the SOME birthday. And best wishes in finding the Mr. Right for you.
Stay sweet, stay kind, loving and obedient to your parents. I truly looked up to you for that. :)
Take care. I <3>

P.O.P.!

2009-02-08T03:07:00.000-08:00

P-ower
O-f
P-rayer
:)

What better way could it be than to experienced the power of prayer yourself before going for a prayer meeting???
Answer: No better way.

Anyway, just a short post. My friends and I were on the way to go for LYPG and his car suddenly broke down not long after picking me up.

Jason: *speaking to Julian* Do you feel my car is ________? (not so good signs from the car.. cant remember what exactly)
Me: *heard their conversation but didn't really bother. thought nothing would happen..*
Not more than 20 seconds later, Jason stopped his car at the side of the LDP and I was like 'what happened?'

Anyway, the car 'died'. The four of us got down the car... Checked the car, but still couldn't find out the cause of it. =( Car could not start up. It would die back again even if it could start up. (Am I right, Jason?)

*things happened. but I shall go straight to the point*

In the end, Julian suggested that we pray... and we prayed... and guess what???

The car started up again! WITHOUT STOPPING AND DYING OFF AGAIN! THANK GOD!!! :DD Jason asked us, 'should we continue going or go home coz afraid can go but cannot come back...?' Of course continue! lol. On our way back we stopped a few times for the car to rest, but it was great and worth it overall to be able to attend lypg, for me. I wanted to be there, knowing this is where God wants me to be for that day. :)

All in all, thank God for bringing us there and for helping us to reach there safely. ;)
Thank You for testing our faith. hahaha.
Thank You for a great time of Your presence. =)
Thank You for showing me who to ask to go. It wasn't by accident that each of my friends were there.
Last but not least, a big thank you to my friends who came along with me. THe 3 J(s)- Jason, Ji Chuan and Julian. Appreciate your company alot! But most of all, it is God who has planned for you all to be there for a purpose, not coincidence. =)

*Updated as requested... haha It's done =)*

Take care. Goodnight. Chiaozz..

& Happy Thaipusam & Chap Goh Meh =)

sugar lollipops!

2009-02-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

I'm soo EXCITED!!! lol..

I'll be going for LYPG; Local Youth Prayer Gathering tomorrow at People's Park Baptist Church from 11am to 1pm. It's an event where youths from KL and PJ gather to seek God's face and pray for our nation. Here's the link if you wanna check it out or curious what it's all about. Click on HERE! *on the word 'here' if u dont get it =)*
Hehe.. Anyway, God never fails to amaze me... He literally made streams of water in a desert; opening shut doors for me. I asked God if going for this prayer event is where He wants me to be as I want to be where He wants me in... And He confirmed it through Isaiah 38:4; where because Hezekiah prayed, God had mercy on Him and extended his life for another 15 years. This has taught me the power of prayer. You never know the real power of it till you experienced it yourself. :)

Second one from Isaiah 42:6-8. The main points:

God has chosen me (and He has chosen you too!); God is with me

To bring light and God's promise of hope to the nations

Most importantly, God will not let humans or idols share His glory and praise ( a BIG reminder to me)

And also Isaiah 43:8- To bring God's ppl together. Tell everyone of every nation to gather around. Which I believe means tell the ppl around you about this and together let's gather to pray.

Because I'm convinced God wants me to be there and to start going this month, not other months, I know I will be just there though I dont know how to get there yet. But I trust God that He'll settle it for me. =) The shut doors I meant above was my transportation problem. My mum allows me to go but she asked me to find my own way there. Not because she's mean or anything, but coz she's really tired of being the driver fetching me and my bro to and fro whether for practice or tuitions after her work and it takes alot of her time, and sometimes she even has to give up her own plans to compromise with our plans; which I totally understand. But I really need her to bring me there... And when I asked her nicely and tried to convince her many days ago, her reply was no. It's like she has to put a stop to this once and for all; stopping me from getting more involved in Christian activities. After that conversation, it's like there was almost no hope and you-can-just-forget-about-asking-her that kind of feeling. Was figuring out of taking a bus, lrt and all with my friend. And then another friend popped in my mind. He planned to go too! I believe God has placed us there; it wasnt by accident. =)

Anyway, to cut it short... Yesterday night, I asked my mum again. *It was my third attempt this week* And I asked her if she is going to the market on sat morn.. And she asked me... Why?? I told her I'm gonna go to the prayer event there by bus then gonna walk. And I told her just wondering if she could fetch us there. Somehow, honestly I felt God had soften her heart that day( Thursday) coz of another incident where I needed her to take me for music practice. Not too long, but not too short story but I'm not gonna put it here. Ask me and I'll share with you the magic words I've said that she's willing to fetch me. The MAGIC WORDS! haha *though in the end she asked my dad to fetch me there and she fetched me back* And I know God was there guiding my words as I've prayed asking God for favor with my mum actually most of the time when I know asking her to fetch is not something she favors. And God surely answers prayers. :) My mum agreed and not only that, she tells me its important to pray for the nation as what the speakers in her Tenthmakers (CF liked based in her office) shared. *And thanks mum! I realized though you complain, its only 30% percent of the time you complain. 70% you just did not, coz you did what you knew was best for us. And if you didnt complain about fetching us so often, I would think you're not a human. hahah*

Well well... Tmr is also another day where my youth is aiming to target 50 youths to come. Well, I know for some of you 50 for your youth church is sap sap sui. But mine is not. But as we believe of not just taking up a challenge made by my pastor, we want to see ppl saved, knowing *& embracing the loving grace of God. May God move mightily in that place, uniting all of us as ONE, glorifying Him in the things we do and speak.. And of course, may the ppl who come have fun in the presence of God and in playing the games specially prepared by one the youth. May my youth group capture the heart of God and do the things He has called us individually to do; fulfilling the plans He has for us in our very own lives.

my youth that I'm proud of deep inside. :)) however, this is not our actual regular size though I wish it was or even bigger according to God's will. =(

I have so many things to share.... Of what God has put in my heart. Of the simple yet suprising thoughts He placed in my mind. How He answers my prayers... I used to keep it to myself and only share when it's needed or when I feel I needed or wanted to. =.= But this year, I had a good kick start of the year with a bang with God. Lol.. This year is soo different from other years. In fact, it is the best of the 19 years I've lived. I dont know why.. But God is doing so much in my life this year and.... It's only the very beginning of February! I dont know what the whole of this 2009 will be like, but one thing for sure God is doing something great not only in my life, but in your life. You need to hear that. And He wants to do more, only if you would come and draw yourself to Him. I'm so excited for what God has in store for me and you! XD

Ending with a high note:

I can't wait for tmr!!! hahah. And I don't know what and how much to expect! But oh well as Siemens said in an sms yesterday, God is in the house! Which means GREAT things happen! :DD

Till then!

TGIF. =)

10 years old P.O.V. ;)

2009-02-06T16:00:00.000-08:00

Had a short conversation with my youngest bro yesterday. Was supposed to be helping him out in a short essay titled "Cita-cita" which means ambition.

Along the way in helping him, I asked him from what he wrote,
Me: Why do you want to be a doctor?
Bro: Because get alot of money.
Me: Be a police also can get alot of money what...
Bro: Police gets little money.
Me: Then you be the sergeant, high ranked officer... Can get alot of money what. *Trying to ask him to change as I know being a doc is not what he likes. And I could hardly find any other reasons to help him in his essay why he wants to be a doc.*

Another bro passed by in the living room...

Me: What other reasons to give in wanting to be a doctor?
Him: ...
Him: Be a penjaga anjing. Or a rubbish collector.
Small bro: They earn very little money,right?
Me to small bro: *smiles* It's how you see it. You can open a place to take care of dogs and do business. *explaining to him its not about which job earns alot and what dont. It's about doing what you like*

Slight conversation carried on. Cant remember what was said.

Back to me and my youngest bro...

Bro: Chi, what is your ambition?
Me: *Thinks* I want to be the girl God wants me to be! *says excitedly, and wanting to give an out of the box answer*
Bro: Why don't be ___________? * the list of not very good jobs... (bad ones, actually)
Me: Do you think this is what God wants me to be?
Bro: Nope! *in an innocent tone*
Me: Then what do you think God wants me to be?
Bro: To give praise to God. *I was amazed, frankly speaking. But I know God uses the simplicity of childrens' mind to speak to us at times* And be a pastor. No, not pastor. Be a pastress. Coz mistress is for girls so pastress is also for girls. *What a thought. How come lady pastors are not called pastress? hahaha*

I've learnt that recently again.

Just be yourself.
Do what you like.
Be who God wants you to be, not others.
Be confident in who you are and in who God created you to be-His masterpiece.

And really, talking to children can be very interesting at times. Their simple mindedness, straight-to-the-point and innocent. I like! =)

Confession

2009-01-29T11:17:00.000-08:00

God... I love YOU!
And I miss YOU very much too...
I'm sorry for seeking You wholeheartedly
Only when I needed You
Or when something unexpectedly good happens.
I'm sorry Lord
When You have to do and add certain things
To hold my heart closer to You
So that I would seek You.
I'm sorry that I draw close to You
Coz I needed You,
And not coz I had loved You sincerely...
I'm sorry, God...
I'm sorry...
=(

I'm sorry, Lord. Real sorry. ='( I just wanna say "I love You. I really do, <3 You"

Red is the Colour of My Favourite Rose!

2009-01-25T00:59:00.000-08:00

Hey all. It's the time of the year again where we all look sooo forward to! *grins* So, here's wishing you from the bottomest bottom, warmest warmth of my heart:

A Very, Blessed, Happy Chinese New Year! :DD

to all who are celebrating and Happy Holidays! :DD to those of you who tumpang gembira. It's very nice of you. lol.. We'll tumpang gembira back when you're celebrating yours. Deal, alright? ;)

This CNY, let's make a difference in other's lives and see how we can be a channel of blessing to them! =)

Gtg. Reunion dinner coming up right next!

TC. Chiaozz.. =)

13.01.09 =)

2009-01-13T22:07:00.000-08:00

It's 4 days after getting my last semester's results. And I am still so grateful every day to God for my Business Law results. The gratefulness and the feeling of unbelievable is still pretty much on me.. Even more when I found out I'm one of the 2 students who got a B for Business Law. And that's the best result, as no one got an A. I know it wasn't my own strength, but by God's grace. He deserves the honor, glory and praise!

As I glanced back and recalled those moments of studying, I can just cry... ='(

It was really so pressuring, the intense atmosphere of my own world of not sure what grade I would get. The thing about Business Law is not just about understanding it, but also being able to write it out. At one point, I felt like I couldn't express what I've understood in writing. Freaky, I tell you! hahaha..

During the intense Business Law revision I had one week before exam, God has been my source of strength. I felt like giving up so many times. But God encouraged me through His Word- Nothing is impossible with God and also whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men. Colossians 3:23

It was during those moments when I really needed encouragement and have to be optimistic even when I feel my world is literally so dark, God has been the light shining, guiding me and walking with me throughout the so called 'dark' or tough moments to me! Moments when I did not utter it out, but it was in my heart of giving up, God was telling me to hang on. Again and again... From that onwards, I've decided to study everything I can and just do my best and trust God for whatever results I will get. =)

One thing I've learnt is there is NO shortcut in life. And that goes the same for studies. There's no shortcut in studies. One must work & study hard. I used to think of the study smart concept and how it comforts us that we don't need to work so hard, just work smart; but now studying HARD is equally important! :))

It's really true... Trust God with all your <3

Well, truly God has shown me His power, His promise, His love & faithfulness in another semester again.

*Thank You, God!* <3<3<3

Tc.. Tata... =)

Praise God!

2009-01-10T10:47:00.000-08:00

PRAISE GOD!

Last semester's results are out. I obtained 2As for College Algebra with Application & Management Principles & 2Bs for Introduction to Computer Application & Business Law. I told God it would really be a miracle to get this CGPA result due to the Business Law subject which was a 3rd year subject plus the high standard set by the really good lecturer. But, I got a 'B' for Business Law! So unbelievable... Was expecting a C honestly coz lecturer's standard is really, really very high. But praise God! Nothing is impossible for Him. =)
All in all, I also reached my target by the grace of my loving God; which is to achieve a CGPA of 3.5 or above at least once in one of the 3 semesters per year. And I did it for my first year! Truly without God, I am nothing.

Truly an amazing God! <3

Inspired by 1 Corinthians 9:24- Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize....

I will study aiming for an A, so even if I dont get an A, I'll get a B. I prefer aiming high. My church pastor once said, "If you're an A student, be the best A student. If you're a B student, be the best B student. That goes the same for C, D and other grades. The main thing is simply to be the best YOU can be!" But hope will not be on the results. Hope is on God. So whether what I achieved is good or not so good results, the joy of the Lord is my strength. He gives and takes away. And I'm not gonna regret any decisions made in the past. There's only one way to move that is MOVING FORWARD.

To those who didn't do so well or didn't get what they expected, don't ever dare to give up. Don't let this semester results bring you down alright? =) This is not the end. It's only the beginning of better results ahead. Nothing is impossible! This is what I believe and hold on to.

Chiaoz... Tc GBU =)

Long Awaited Love

2009-01-10T06:29:00.000-08:00

Attended my cousin brother's wedding dinner, tea ceremony and all... last Saturday to be exact. It's something once in a lifetime for them- marriage. Though it depends in the future. But I bellieve they'll stay strong despite the storms, winds and tornado(s) in life. =)

Anyway, will let the pics do the talking as usual. * Everybody SILENT PLEASE. Okay... Pics YOU CAN TALK now! Still can't hear you.. Louder please... =p* I'm crazy now. I know actually. hahah..

Btw, before the dinner night.. Had Bachelor's Night... So I guess I'll blog from dates which is much easier to see and to do. =)

2nd Jan 09 (Fri) - BACHELOR'S NIGHT

Had dinner. Played Nintendo wii. Roamed around the super big new house. Glanced their wedding photos. Superbly nice~

My ever gorgeous cousins- Su Chen, Su Ann and me

Nintendo wii.. Seriously uber cool! Played it for the FIRST time & AMAZED! Just tie the consoler's strap around your wrist and move your wrist around to play. XD

Stitch is bigger than what you see over here!

Wedding photo album. Nice~

TEA CEREMONY - 3rd January 09 (noon)

On the way for this tea event, we got lost and ended up on the highway; paying 2 tolls... just because we missed a turn. but we reached finally. thank God!

Here comes the bride!

Grandma =)

Ada gaya photographer, cuz! =)

Bride and groom =)

Parents and parents-in-law ;)

WEDDING DINNER - 3rd January 09 (nite)

Had plenty of fun + camwhore sessions with cousins especially & others too, not forgetting really great, sumptious food! Really good! So not kidding. Was held @ Nikko Hotel, 3rd of January 2009 =)

Siblings. "We know how to camwhore too! =p"

hahah.. that's what they do to the guys before getting the bride. oh btw, it's video being played.

random shot. trying to act like a pro photographer. lol

Camwhore gang on wedding night XD

God given family =)

did funny things & snapped funny shots after dinner ended. but, not posting them up. pai seh.. hah..

cuzzy wuzzy cousins!

FINISHED. DONE. OVER. HAHAH.. Took quite sometime. was blogging & chatting...

tatas..

Watching the Nite 2008 Pass Me By...

2009-01-04T09:23:00.000-08:00

YO-U!

Whassup? Was at church on New Year's Eve for Watchnite Service to celebrate & praise God for His goodness and faithfulness throughout the year 2008. Pastor Alvin mentioned something like this: "Some people attend watchnite service to welcome the new year 2009; whereas some people attend watchnite service to chase away the old year 2008." Very interesting! It all boils down whether one is an optimist or pessimist. And always, the optimists are the very ones who would most likely to succeed because they are the ones who are able to look even at the worst things at another perspective and take it as a lesson to learn and to see if they can make something good out of something not so good. This is my point of view. Anyway, I like optimism. Not sure if there's such a word... but I really like optimism. haha. But surely hope I can remember to be one at ALL times. =)

Glancing 2008 back, God was indeed gracious to me and my family. He provided every of our single need. We weren't lacked of anything good! He provided financially too though there were tough times. He used many people who came across our path, and even our very own near relatives to bless us. And we too, choose to bless others knowing when we bless others, we are being God's extended hands and feets. =)

2008 embarked the many first beginnings in my life; being away home for a duration of 2 months +, bathing using sarong, meeting all sorts of ppl with different personalities and characters, college life and the list goes on...

2009 will be a great year for me albeit there would not be short of trials and testings. How do I know it would be great?? Optimism. haha =) Pastor mentioned during service about the ONE THING. There are many things, many purposes and visions one can ever have. But what is the one thing that God wants you to do this coming 2009? The one thing...? I am encouraged by a guy named Caleb found in the Bible. An ordinary guy but so purposed-driven.

God told the Israelites that God is going to bless them by giving them a land that will be filled with milk and honey; and the Israelites were very pleased to hear that. But when they discovered the land was being conquered by a huge and strong tribe of other nation, they started to doubt God, disobeyed Him as they felt inferior as well as impossible to do it. But what caught my attention when I read the verse again. It says, "But because my servant Caleb has a different spirit and follows me wholeheartedly....." the word that caught my attention was wholeheartedly. Well, even the Israelites followed God but only Caleb followed God wholeheartedly, all the way, without reproach and turning back. Caleb was not distracted by others or other works. He knew his vision and he seized it.

This coming 2009, God has placed the ONE THING in my heart. I want to have a different spirit and follow God wholeheartedly in the one thing He wants me to do just like Caleb. I want to achieve the promise that He has for me. But I need His strength, His encouragement, His grace and His Spirit every day, every moment. The fear is always there. But when there's fear, I certainly cannot achieve the things of God because I'm relying on my own strength. But His perfect love casts away all my fears. Today, I am encouraged. WITH GOD, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. =)

Anyway, posting some COOL pictures taken with my COOL youth friends after the service. =)

Fee Vien.. My twin sis! jk. lol.. my chilli HOT AND SPICY sis in Christ. Or strawberry sweet? HAHA

3 MACHO GUYS who want to block the girls from stealing the limelight. XD Sharing is caring you know... lalala ;)

Anyway, 2008 has come to an end. It either has been a great or not-so-great year for some of us...

Well, as for 2009...

No one knows what will happen...

Though things may not be PERFECT

Or turn up the way we expected them to be...

And maybe even some unwanted things,circumstances or situations popped by in 2009...

BUT...

We will still (and never stop!) keep rocking on for Jesus Christ, the author and finisher of our faith! :)

BLESSED HAPPY NEW YEAR! =)

*A lil late... sorry... =(*

sheer cheers for '09!

COOL Summer Vacation!

2009-01-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

Youth camp was AWE to the SOME! It was fun, amazing, simply enjoyable. We had a very entertaining yet anointed servant of God, Pastor Nicholas Choo. The theme for this COOL Youth Camp was ID-ME; which means Identify Me. This camp certainly has reached its goal as it helped me to discover myself better and to know that I am God's masterpiece. Ephesians 2:10 says it all- For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us long ago. For those who do not know, COOL stands for Christ Our Only Lord.

For now, let the pictures do the talking. Sit back, buckle up your seat belts as the pictures takes you on a journey of the 4 days 3 nights camp at Hotel Seri Malaysia, Malacca. Enjoy~

This is part of the COOL Youth worship team =) the most front girl is Melissa Pang whom left recently for her NS stint. We'll miss her very much... but God has His purpose in sending her there- to be the light and salt for Him!

That's our awesome speaker, Pastor Nicholas Choo praying for us...

One thing God has taught me in this camp was it is not God who has to move to suit himself to my plans and dreams; but rather it is I who has to move forward to align myself to God's plans and dreams or my life.

We did drawings on 2 boxes. One was a box of God's dreams for us.

This is how it looks like. :DD Well... mine was not too nice as I didn't really put in as much effort as some of my friends who made really nice ones. The top right is mine fyi.. haha =)

And one of the best part of the camp was obviously.... the GAMES!

Acting game, station games which comprises of walking in a team with arms locked, each one memorizing Ephesians 2:10, eating apples in pairs, paper stepping game... whatever you call it..., taking out balloons from flour using your mouth, scissors, paper, stone game in a different way.... Might have left out others.. Anyway, recalling all these from my memory through looking back at pictures. =)

Apple eating game :)

First pic: Blue team posing after the flour station games; Second pic: picture with youth friends! XD

More pics...

Btw, we learnt to make balloon sculpture too. How cool is that?!?! So uber cool!... Well, at least for me. Teehee. Have always wanted to learn that. :)

Balloon sculptures... fyi, Pastor Nicholas uses these balloon sculptures as an aid in preaching. Seriously, every time he does that, all eyes are on him. One interesting way in grabbing our attention. Oh.. he does magic tricks too. And he taught us a few~ Tell me again, how cool is that?! haha.. lol..

And of course, our hang out aka Maggi time... while watching a movie called Christine. On the last night, 16 youths slept in a room meant for 4 ppl. Awesome? lol..

Anyway, I'll end with...

We are Making A Difference for God because we are His masterpiece!

Ephesians 2:10 - For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.

Pictures courtesy of Uncle Colin. Doubt he'll read this, but thanks a whole lot!

Ciaozz..

Season to LOVE <3

2008-12-25T11:21:00.000-08:00

Sad to say, this Christmas has certainly not been much to my delight. =( Many unwanted or undesired things happened to my relatives. Visited 2 hospitals on Christmas eve... How bad can that be, you may ask? Sigh... You know, I used to (and still am) feel uncomfortable to just step in the hospital. I dislike almost everything in the hospital. The environment, the atmosphere, the facilities... Everything! It gives a feeling of being dirty, sicky... those kind... to just think back about it.. And a random but insightful thought just entered my mind- I was borned in a HOSPITAL!!!

But I realized that a hospital is a place where reaching out can be done. Jesus loved the sick, the poor, the needy and the list goes on. Not once, not even once Jesus avoided them, but rather He stayed close to them; helped them, healed them. And if I love Jesus and want to imitate Him, I have to learn to love not the hospital, but for the sick people in the hospital. But first, I have to stepped in the hospital. It's not something that I like doing seriously speaking... But, I want to care like Jesus did. =) I want to love them like Jesus did, and I'm not letting the fear or discomfort entering hospitals to stop me from reaching out to them. I will overcome it by the grace and strength of God. =)

This Christmas season, I learnt that it isn't much of giving and receiving presents; but rather the heart to care and show love to one another; particularly the people close to me. This Christmas has certainly been a meaningful one albeit not being able to attend church on Christmas eve.

May this Christmas be not just another celebration of festivals; but a celebration of hope, peace, love and joy. May we learn to love and care for one another more and more like Jesus.

BLESSED CHRISTMAS, everybody!

Never Stop!

2008-12-16T09:43:00.000-08:00

Leaving for youth camp in less than 24 hours.
Have not packed.
Have not prepared totally for the song Majesty tomorrow.
Have not done so many things yet.

But above all these
I wanna give praise to God
For giving me the ability to trust in Him
In spite of what people may think and so on...

I need to trust in Him.
I really need to trust in Him completely =)

God I give my heart, my life to You
And I'll never stop giving it all to You
Take my life, take my everything.
Take my heart, take every part of me

I believe God has new lessons to teach me there.
I expect GREAT things to happen.
And I know He will. =)

Whatever I do, I'm giving my best to You. Open my eyes to the things unseen.
This is my prayer and my cry.

Hear from me when I get back. Till then! God bless =)

What I Like About You :)

2008-11-17T04:14:00.000-08:00

You know... I realized not everyone was born to excel academically. No matter how much they have tried, sometimes studying is simply just not their strength. One may not be good in studying, but that does not mean that person is useless.

For everything God created is good. 1 Timothy 4:4a

Some may be good in drawing, some may be talented in singing, some were blessed with creative minds, some were born to be a blessing to others by having a caring and loving heart and the list goes on and on... Everyone is special, unique and different in their own way. It does not mean if one cannot live up to your expectations in certain things, it doesn't mean that person is any lesser than you.

One thing I've learnt. Never esteem yourself better than others. And never look down on people. Always be humble. :)

Seriously, I thank God He didn't create everyone to be smart academically. Really. Or else the world would be so boring and dull. It gives the feeling of living in a world where the only colour available is black. Okay, to have more colours, add in GREY and white. :) All of the same kinds. No variations. It's like in a large jungle, no other animals except for all tigers. No lions, no elephants, no birds, no squirrels, no worms, no deers, no butterflies...

See... How dreadful...

sigh...

But praise be to Him! :D God is a God that is pregnant with creativity. He created each of His creations uniquely different in their own ways.

Like this!!

:DD

Some have wings, some have claws, some have stripes, some have long necks. Each has their own srengths and weaknesses. A horse has the strength to run fast. Eagles have good eyesights to catch its prey. A cameleon is able to change colours depending on its environment to protect itself from preys. You smart people could continue on the list for me, right? ;) hehe

Every one has their own kekuatans and kelemahans. But we tend to always focus and condemn others for their weaknesses. Have we ever thought that we too have our own weaknesses? Many of them in fact? Every one has a good and bad side or maybe habits or weaknesses. Instead of always looking or focusing on the bad things, should we begin to look at the good things in a person and focus on that?

Man, if people would actually do that, this world will surely be a much better place to live in. Less arguments, less fights, less problems, more peace, more understanding towards one another... More love in the air too! Don't you think so?

Never doubt that a small, group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world (or at least the world around you). Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has. ~Margaret Mead~

* & the words in ( bracket ) ~Melissa Ong~haha

Someone once said something similar to this, If you want to change things or see change, let the change begins within you first.

I Wish for a Shooting Star...

2008-11-17T03:02:00.000-08:00

My hopes and my dreams
All live and breathe in You :)

How I love You
How I need You Lord
How I want You
More and more

*All of my life, I've never found such <3...

well... you know it.

2008-11-14T03:14:00.000-08:00

Just dropping by to say....

H-E-L-L-O!

and yeah...

G-O-O-D-B-Y-E!

and also...

T-A-K-E C-A-R-E! Jaga diri baik-baik. =)

and one more, before I forget

A-L-L T-H-E (very) B-E-S-T to SPMers and to those who are sitting for exams now or soon!

P/s: Please pray for me and my friends who will be sitting for finals soon; in about 2 weeks or precisely;16 days from now. Still have alot more to study. Sometimes you know it feels like padan muka for not managing your time well enough, procrastinating and not knowing your priorities. So, the final product- last minute work. Really. Oh well.. But by the grace of God, He gives wisdom to those who lacks wisdom; generously, without finding fault. That's why I love Him. haha. ;) But no, I don't love Him because of that. I love Him because He first loved me. :) Do keep my SPM friends in prayer too. Thank YOU with a cherry on top! XD To those who are done with exams, am very happy for you. :D Enjoy your hols... Have a happy Happy Hols!

God bless all of you , people! =)

A Reason to Sing =)

2008-10-27T00:13:00.000-07:00

All of my life
In every season

You are still God

I have a reason to sing

I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise

No weapon formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice

I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Angel Sent from Heaven

2008-10-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

Loving, gentle, God-fearing, understanding

Tough, authentic, patient, peaceful

Learner, Creative, Skillful, Overcomer

Independent, strong, responsible, faithful

Such has been said

Much has been told

I'm proud to shout it loud

And say...

She is my MOTHER!

BLESSED BIRTHDAY! <3

p/s: Thanks for lending a hand to my teammates and I on our Management assignment! Appreciate it alot.... =)

Sticking together

2008-10-16T09:57:00.000-07:00

My wonderful team members! From left: Veronica, Mei Wei, Fee Vien, Melissa

Missing in action: Cammy and Syairah due to some unavoidable reasons

Breakfast before "working." lol.

I believe it wasn't by accident that we were in the same Management team for this assignment.

And I thank God very much for the each and every one of you. Indeed, each one of you is unique and special in your own ways. When one is weak, one is also strong. Somehow in a way, we complement each other. That's what a team is for. United we stand, divided we fall!

Let's bring the house down this coming Tuesday! ;)

Oh and btw,

Sunway Pyramid here we come!!! XD

If you don't do it, you don't really believe it.

2008-10-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

Yes, IF YOU DON'T DO IT, YOU DON'T REALLY BELIEVE IT. =)

Some people spend their whole time searching for what's right, but they can't seem to find any time to practice it. Your life story is not written with a pen, but with your actions. To do nothing is the way to be nothing.

Words of encouragement or inspiration really encourage or inspire me.
I believe when you are already in a bad enough situation, you don't want to hear things that would 'demotivate' you even further. Like...
You'll never ever gonna make it through.
It's impossible.
I give up.
It's too late.

I'd rather choose to believe that Nothing is impossible with God (Luke 1:37). From my past experiences... and even now... in my assignments and exams.. As long as it's not the end there is still chance. Just need to work harder and smarter too coz time is running out.. there is still hope. There is still sunshine. Ahhh.. Sunshine. I love the word sunshine as it brings a sheer light of hope when things seem dark and impossible. Sunshine~ : DD 'Candle' ain't that bad too, no? ; p hahaha.

Btw, Adidas' tagline turns it around a lil, but still the same meaning: Impossible is nothing.

But of course this 'nothing is impossible' is for the better of things and not for the worse. You don't want to misused it for commiting a crime such as stealing or copying in an exam right? hehehe.. xp

Oh I've learnt something new from Management class today...
It's called ...........

J.I.T.

JIT what, you may ask?....

....

JIT means....

....

...

Just In Time!
Caught you! xp

Gtg.. Till next time!

God bless <3

Sailing...

2008-09-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

Boy... It's the end of September already.
Look at how time flies ~
Things changed.
People changed.
Situations changed.
But my God
Never changes. =)

Throughout the past weeks
I've gone through many things
Learnt many things
Stressed up over a number of things
=) over several things
And :'( over some things
But God has been with me
Comforting and directing me

Tough times were present
And weren't absent
Where I struggled
Letting my emotions and feelings
Take its toll on me
Till I've found myself
Troubled and worried

Things hasn't been smooth sailing
Nor a bed of nice, sweet smelling roses
Hhmm..
How I wished ;D
But as I have said
God has been there
Throughout all the ups and downs
Of high rides of emotions
Thanks be to Him
And because of Him
I've found myself
Back in who I am in Him
My strong tower
Deliverer
Refuge and Redeemer
I'm found once again
In His everlasting arms
:)

A song of His - Everlasting God

Chorus
You never change
You're still the same
You are the everlasting God
You will remain
After the day is gone
And the things of earth have passed
Everlasting God

p/s: Many times we can't solve problems, change circumstances... Though we wished upon a star that we could. I guess it's time to stand back and learn to trust God and see how His hands move the mountains in your life.

I've also learnt... Never be controlled by your emotions. Emotions has no right to control your life till it makes you feel one of a kind, be it lost, directionless and etc. You get what I mean. =) We're to walk by faith, not by feelings. Sometimes, we must choose an attitude that God wants us to have, that's contrary to the way we feel.

*Oh, do wake me up when September ends. :))

Green Day

Shine the Light!

2008-09-18T21:39:00.000-07:00

I've found this 'prayer' from Facebook and I found it to be meaningful; especially when situations around us are constantly changing. If you read this slowly and properly, you too might find it meaningful. =)

God, make me an instrument of your peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

Where there is injury, pardon;

Where there is doubt, faith;

Where there is despair, hope;

Where there is darkness, light;

Where there is sadness, joy;

O, divine Master, grant that

I may not so much seek

to be consoled as to console

to be understood as to understand,

to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive,

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Amen.

PEACE PRAYER by St Francis of Assisi

We were all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson~

Shine your light to the world by choosing to love, understand and bringing hope to the world that is in despair!

The girl is BACK! ;)

2008-09-18T00:43:00.001-07:00

Selamat pagi semua! :DD Heh..
I know I've vanished into thin air for quite awhile.
You might ask what has she been up to? ^
Haha. Had been a little busy + a lil stressed.
Buusssyy...
With college work as usual.
Talk about projects, assignments, tests and quizes coming in,
not to forget revision and attending classes
College is prowess in this! hahaha
But the lil stress comes from studying.
I've got my textbooks just last week.
And I've never felt so happy before seeing TEXTBOOKS! Heh.
It's like I've been preparing a red carpet awaiting for the 'grand entry' of my textbooks!
Imagine how much they meant to me. lol.
So yeah, I have alot of catching up to do
So if you hardly see me here
You know what I'm up to yeah?
Haha..

p/s: Thank YOU for checking out on my blog even when there's NO updates. It's very encouraging. And I appreciate it so much!

Take care,ya? Cheers~

13.09.08

2008-09-18T00:43:00.000-07:00

Strong and tough
Funny and loving
Pretty and sweet
Never ending
This is the girl I've been talking
And now I am, finally showing.

Ladies and gentlemen.

Presenting to you........

Ms. Ng Su Ann =D haha..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SU ANN!

Hey, you're 15 years old this year! Quite 'old' already. Lol.

Actually BIG girl already.

Well, you are one of my hippest(coolest) cousins around. Haha..

Just want to encourage you

Things may never seem to go the way you want

But Jesus is the way to run

Your refuge, strong tower and deliverer

He loves you forever and ever

Hold on to Him day and night

And He will never let you go out of His sight

Trust in Him with all your heart

And He will never break your heart.

*haha. I never thought I would end up writing this way.

Anyway, I must say I am so proud of you to have seen you grown in faith. I think it's a real privilege to see you grow. Continue to hang on to Him. Run the race God has called you to and fight the good fight. May you be the salt and light for Him wherever you are- school, home,church, outside.. Anywhere you can walk or go to! Hehe.. Stay strong. Stay pretty. Stay cool. Stay YOU! Jesus loves you very much! And yup, I heart you too! =)

* The reason I've put Happy Birthday instead of Happy Belated Birthday (and still not changing it) not becoz I'm not aware of it, but coz it was meant to be a birthday post and not a belated birthday post. Just that I couldn't find the time to blog earlier.

So yeah, Happy Birthday,cuz! =)

Hang on...

2008-09-05T08:59:00.001-07:00

Right now, I dislike the way He wants me to go. It's hard, tough and real painful. It's definitely not the way I want. =( Going my own way would make me happier for now, but in the future.. I don't know. I really don't.

I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go. ~Isaiah 48:17~

Isaiah 48:17 is the Word given by Him. Am inspired. Very. Heh.. It reminded me that it is God who plans my every step and every path that I take. I know it is in during such moments if I do not wait or hang on to Him; or to what He has in store for me, and start going my own way, it is the very beginning for things to start going haywired. lol..

The main word: HANG ON!!!

Perhaps some of you who happened to read this bloggie might be wondering or weighed down by what lies ahead of you. The unforeseen future, circumstances... your future, studies, career, relationships, friendships, and even the slightest or biggest decisions that you have to make right now or in the future. Know that it is God who has great plans for your life. His plans for your life is good, not bad. Keep your faith. Keep walking with Him! Hold on, never give up! He is a God who gives second chance,third,fourth,fifth and so on. I am a testimony of that. Haha.. If you've drifted away from Him, it's really okay and it is never too late to turn back to Him. =)

So, hang on! Even when you feel like giving up or letting go.

Hang on like mr froggie. You'll never know what good it'll do to you in the end of the day. =p

Trust is important. Believing God without seeing or even understanding with your own mind. His ways are higher! Put your trust in Him, and in His time, He makes all things beautiful. Indeed.

Ciaoz..

Mighty Inventions... ;)

2008-09-03T06:29:00.000-07:00

With people living in this era where technology is greatly advancing ; the impact of technology on inventions, after inventions, constantly amaze us at the wonders of its wide variety of shapes, sizes and most of all,the purpose of the invention itself. Below are some pictures of "interesting" inventions which are only available in Japan!

So, sit back, relax and enjoy as Japan takes you on a ride presenting to you their great and mighty inventions!

The very first one...

Butter stick!

mini house cleaner... *sigh* *poor baby*

you named it.

hhmm.. i'm not really sure what's the purpose of this. to protect the head? haha..

I personally like this. very useful for a bowl of hot maggi.. lol..

winnie the pooh toast bread =)

shoe protector from the rain

Last but not least....

* get ready for the most mind-blowing invention*

.....

tadaa!

speechless,right? lol..

Hhmm... I wonder when will we see such inventions in Malaysia itself?

Cheers! =)

Tagged!

2008-09-02T05:54:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Fee Vien

Name 20 people randomly. At the end of the survey, choose 5 people to do the survey. Don't read the questions but name the 20 people first...

01. Jeremy

02. Fee Vien

03. Su Ann

04. Ji Chuan

05. Sheryn

06. Jolyn

07. Felyn

08. Melissa Pang

09. Ong

10. Zekey

11. Alex

12. Siemens

13. Hannah

14. Kam Yan

15. Jessima

16. Jason

17. Ann Sha

18. Mabel

19. Wai Yan

20. Reynolds? haha..

p/s: it is not in order. as it is said,it is random. =)

1. How did you meet number 18?
school.. from cu if i'm right.. yeah..

2. What will happen if you have not met number 17?
i would miss out on having a very nice friend. a friend who would just smile at me, say hi and make my day in school almost every day in school last year whenever i see her or whenever she walked past my desk =)

3. What if number 9 and 20 dated?
it's terrible.. trust me.. lol =p

4. What if number 5 and 10 dated?
*leaving this blank*

5. Describe number 1.
analytical, humourous, a badminton freak! yeah.. he really is i tell you! ;)

6. Do you think number 8 is attractive?
yeah. she's funny and is able to laugh for no apparent reason. and i love her for who she is.

7. Describe number 7.
a God-fearing girl. cheerful. kind. lovable. always seen with a smile no matter what troubles she may be facing.

8. Do you know any family members of 12?
unfortunately not. =( but saw his dad once. counted? :D

9. What languages do number 15 speak?
Malay. Tamil. English (she just needs mandarin for a complete muhibbah set of languages!) ;)

10. Who is number 9 hanging out with?
in school? i'm not too sure who's his cliques..

11. How old is number 16 this year?
18!

12. Who's number 2 favourite singer?
Hillsong! nah.. i'm just guessing for her. heh. chinese artistes.. she prefers slow songs.. those kind that has nice melodies, heart-touching. and romantic. compared to fast tempo songs..

13. When is the last time you spoke to number 13?
whoa.. about 1 month+ ago on the phone.

14. Have you ever dated number 4?
lol.. nah.. still single. =)

15. Would you ever date number 19?
hhmm.. maybe maybe.. who knows?... haha.. no la. i won't! ;)

16. Is number 3 single?
yeah. for now she is. right?

17. What is number 10 last name?
Wong

18. Would you be in a relationship with number 11?
haha.. i don't think so. but i have to really say, he has improved so, so much on playing the electric guitar! good job! keep it up! =)

19. What is the school of number 13?
i heart this no. 13 girl. smk assunta! now? Taylors.. =))

20. Where does number 6 stay?
goodyear court 3

21. What is your favourite thing about number 5?
the thing. haha! nono.. she's sweet and gentle =)

22. Have you ever seen number 14 naked?
closing my eyes... goodnight! no.. duh! hehe.

I tag.............
1. ann sha =)
2. seok san =)
3. julia =)
4. japheth =)
5. mabel =)

* sorry =( * Enjoy! ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-08-26T23:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO......

YEW POH LING a.k.a. PRESIDENT! :D

President of what you may ask? President of Chi Cha Bon Cha Club! Hahaha.. Knowing you in National Service has been one of the most beautiful things in my life. Sharing and savouring those sweet and not-so-sweet moments with you during National Service has really been a sweet pleasure. I miss those days where we talked and laughed together, cried together, made fun of each other, encouraged one another,listened to songs on mp3, exercised together and so on.. You were my closest friend out of the many very close friends I had. I've never met someone so beautiful inside out like you,someone so filled with a heart of compassion.. I recalled once when we,the CCBC Club members came across the news of the huge number of people dying in Myanmar, you were so reactive.. You said with so much of distress feelings "hen chan ler..." And I think it is a rare thing nowadays, rarer than finding a precious gemstone; to be able to find someone so compassionate like you. =)

You are a very independent and loving girl. Our friendship was not built on the language that we spoke,but rather built on love. And that goes the same for the CCBC group. I remembered you once mentioned to me "Imagine now we speak like that (broken english + cantonese + very little of mandarin/malay) also so close already, imagine how close we can be if we can talk better(in a language that we are both comfortable in. And yes,btw, I'm a banana literally. sad case)." And I can't help but nodded in agreement. teehee.. ^

I do not have many personal pictures of just the both of us due to not having a camera most of the time in NS except for the last 2 weeks of NS. But the memories are captured in my heart and my mind and will live on forever.

Chi Cha Bon Cha Club members.. =p

my friend who does silly things with me and on me too.. and likewise.. hehe..

my/our favourite ice-cream Lava partner :D

I don't think our friendship is either built on words or pictures too. Rather,it is built on what we had shared and gone through together. Agree? ^ We really got to meet up soon! Teehee.. Once again,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, SWEETIE!

A ring is round

It has no end

Just like our friendship

For you my dear friend. =)

I HEART YOU LOTS! =)

College ain't that fun anymore...

2008-08-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

I used to be happy going to college. Last semester, Public Speaking, Macroeconomics and General Biological Science were the "interesting" subjects I took. Lol.. It was fun! Public Speaking was the best and the most entertaining subject for me! Not to mention,friends who were taking this subject too were the best! But I have to say that I'm so blessed to have other wonderful friends in Macroeconomics and Biology classes who have really been a great hand in helping me in ways.. THANK YOU! :D This semester,I have College Algebra with Applications which is MATHS! (one of the subjects that I really look forward to; have been waiting all my life in college), Introduction to Computer Applications, Management Principles and Business Law. Ain't going that far to elaborate more.. Picture speaks a thousand words. So,here are some pictures from last semester-projects,assignments,random pics..

My microscope! :D

plant cell :D

the catching, pining/mounting,labeling insects project that rob me of my precious beauty sleep.

picture of us playing with the props after our public speaking performance. lol..

Christine =)

Christine and Fee Vien :DD

Anyway,now I don't look so forward going to college anymore. Why? Hhmm..

How Much Longer?

2008-08-20T22:18:00.000-07:00

* A poem written in my classroom last year while I was trying to absorb Chemistry facts into my head.. And understanding just one or a few pages can take hours.. Till I came to the point where I felt so stressed up about it and with so many other subjects that needed my time and attention, I don't know how much more I can take it.. I'm so tired,so weared up... Wondering how much longer must I bear with all these.. Thus,this poem came about.. And how one of God's worship songs reminded me that trials and suffering may seem long, but eternity will be even longer.. Enjoy! ^

HOW MUCH LONGER?

I’m sitting against this hard,plastic chair,
Laying aside my thick Chemistry book,
Pondering why life is so tough...
How much more must I persevere,
To finish the race that I’ve fought?
How much longer?
How much more?
I wonder...

I feel like I’ve drifted away from Him,
Yet I know He is always there,
Only to find that He is waiting,
For me to call on Him...

I feel so tired and weary,
With the things of this world screaming at me,
Just to gain my attention,
And I’m partly affected...
It feels like all the trials and sufferings,
Pains and difficulties,
Are big and will never end,
Only to find that this is only the beginning,
Swallowing me up,time after time,
Day after day...
I wonder,would I be drown by it...
Someday?

But hey,is He not greater than all of the above?
Is He not bigger and stronger?
Is His ways not higher?
His hands not bigger?
His love not deeper?
I’ll choose to trust in Him,
Knowing He will never leave me nor forsake me,
And His promises are Yes and Amen!
Trials and sufferings in this world may seem bigger...
And will never end,
But deep down,
I’m assured...
That things waiting for me in eternity,
Are far more greater than all my sufferings here.

9.15am,
10 July 2007
(Tuesday)

* Inspired by last Sunday’s worship (8 July 07) from the song All Hail King Jesus~And throughout eternity, I’ll sing Your praises, And I’ll reign with You throughout eternity~ It means to me that the trials and sufferings in this world seems big and will never end, but I’m assured that things waiting for me in eternity are far more greater than all I’m going through now and about to go through in the many years to come. This tough times seem long,but eternity will even be longer. What am I going to do throughout eternity,I wonder? Worship! Yes,worship. =)

Check this out!

2008-08-18T21:32:00.000-07:00

I don't simply post links.. But I'll be posting one here..

http://www.abundantbible.com/

Something that was very interesting for me as I read just now.. Things that were foretold long time ago that already came to past.. And many more that are coming to past.. Free History lessons.. lol..

Please check it out.. Nothing to lose,right? ;)

Thanks.. Take care.. =)

Greatest Olympian!

2008-08-18T21:01:00.000-07:00

Michael Phelps...

A man where no man has ever gone before...

8 GOLD medals in a single Olympics! Record breaker.. Incredible swimmer.. Set 7 world records and 1 Olympic record, doing a personal best time in every event. A man who has created history for himself.. A man who has done what seemed almost impossible. Even if (let's say someone in the future) is able to break his 8 gold medals olympics record, he, Michael Phelps will still be remembered as a living legend for a very long, long time!

Well done!

Impossible is nothing.. ;D

2008-08-18T03:57:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of college for a new,second semester... Which means I've finished my first semester and semester break too! Whee~ :D

Seriously, God has been so merciful and gracious to me. From assignments to assignments, projects to projects, exams to exams.. The strength He has given me with all the late nights..
Last semester.. I've held on tightly onto one verse which was :

For NOTHING is impossible with God. Luke 1:37

Though it's a simple and short verse, yet it gave me so much of strength and hope especially when I have to meet due dates for assignments, projects and at the same time study for exams. Not small thing, not big thing, not some thing.. but NO thing is impossible with God. So be encouraged,people! For indeed, NOTHING is impossible with God!

Ciaoz..

What a tragic day!

2008-08-18T03:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, after church.. As my mum,my small bro and myself were just standing outside the car at the car park lot.. a chinese man with one of his hand full of dried-up blood stains together with his wife,who was driving the motorbike all of a sudden stopped by to ask for a few hundred bucks! The man said he just met with an accident and urgently needs money to see a doctor. Alot of brief conversations carried on here as my mum bagan to questioned him as to why can't he go to a doctor nearby but all the way to his so-called company's doctor. And he replied,"It's cheaper." And he said he would return the money later on.. He will give his wife's IC for us to keep as a guarantee.. Bet the IC is fake.. Anyway, mum gave him RM 10 to help him coz as she says we do not know what desperate situation they are in. And at least he will go away.. After he saw my mum giving his wife the RM 10,he headed to another car starting the same thing all over again.. showing his hand full of dried blood and began to ask for money again..

Honestly, I felt a little disappointed to see that chinese couple doing such a thing.. The stories,the lies.. Everything.. I don't like it.. But at the same time I pray that whatever circumstances they're going through,I pray God will bring them through.. It breaks my heart to see them do such a thing.. But yet I believe they are in a desperate enough situation to lead them to carry out such actions..

And I thank my God so much for protecting each and every one of us yesterday. Anything could have happened yesterday. Really anything! Who knows if he would just snatch my mum's handbag.. Or mine.. Who knows if he is hiding a knife or anything? Who knows if he would hurt my youngest bro or anyone of us.. And the lists of who knows goes on.... So, once again.. Thank You God, so much for Your protection and covering.. It's amazing to know that no matter what situations be it dangerous or not,YOU,God are still in control. =) And having the peace that is beyond understanding..

Sick

2008-08-14T01:26:00.000-07:00

I am sick~ The strange thing was I dreamt in my beauty sleep informing my mum that I'm feeling feverish. And when I woke up... VOILA! Felt feverish. Not only did I had fever,had a pretty bad phlegm which irritates my throat and thus coughed, and a very bad sorethroat too.. sigh.. My fever was quite high yesterday.. That my ears are literally burning! Which leads to headache.. Can you imagine how hot I felt? And my legs! Are like jelly-like kind of feeling. Walking has never been so tiring... Not only that.. had body pain... I couldn't rely on myself to do things as usual.. sigh.. But another strange thing is though I had fever, my stomach's metabolism is still functioning like normal.. As though I 'm not sick at all.. Felt hungry.. And craved for food.. Feeling hungry is miserable for me. Haha.. You know when you have fever,you would begin to loose your appetite to eat.. And you would also cover yourself up in a blanket coz you're feeling cold.. and yet hot at the same time.. I didn't go through these.. strangely..

But in moments like this... Above all my body uneasiness,pain, and jelly-like feeling, I praise God coz He is my Healer! Woot.. Hehe.. But this time,I fell sick for a reason.. A particular reason that God loved me so much that He had to allow me to fall sick to get my attention.. =( During this semester break,I had been so busy and preoccupied with my own stuffs.. Olympics, piano,driving,cooking,television,reading,Internet,cleaning up my room and more... And God seem to have taken almost the last place. I only spend real,genuine quality time with Him at night or midnight for this semester break. Yet, talking to Him even if it could just be a simple, straight from the heart 5 mins, I can feel His presence right straight at my face.. But I have to get this straight. Prayer is not about feeling Him whether He 's there or not. It's about faith-believing though not seeing (or feeling) but yet knowing He hears your prayers.. =) This shows how much He longs for His children whom He created fearfully and wonderfully to spend time with Him.

Sometimes,you know.. you can get so caught up running around being busy with your own things and plans, and in the end, you've failed to get tuned in to hear that gentle,,little still voice that speaks inside of you. And I'm one of them now. sigh..

One thing I've learnt.. God will NEVER run out of plans in finding ways to get connected back to you.. Really.. And I'm so amazed by that! God's techniques,methods in drawing one back into His loving arms are so,so unpredictable! Who would have thought God would allow someone to fall sick to get healed spiritually? Haha.. Only because He loves us and longs for us so much that He does things to draw His children back to Him.

It is not the healthy who needs a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. Luke 5:31

What a lesson for my very first semester break.. sigh.. But one thing for sure,this will be the most memorable thing/lesson during this 3 weeks of sem break. Not the ordinary and things-to-accomplish sem break anymore, but an interesting,I-won't-forget-what-had-happened sem break!

P/s: you can check out Tracy's blog.. http://preciouz-creation.blogspot.com/ How God had drawn her closer by allowing her to fall sick too. It's not merely coincidence that I've mistaken her for my another friend's blog, but God's hands was leading me even when I'm on the Net.. haha..

Cheers! :D

Passion World Tour!!!

2008-08-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

Awesome. Wonderful. Beautiful. Awestruck. Ah... Indescribable! Passion World Tour was DA BOMB!!! God was magnificent in that place. It was a really beautiful and amazing moment to see my generation, people of my age get together, to unite in one voice worshipping and declaring the faith of our one and only God!

Though I missed the first 45 mins,thank God the worship was not totally over yet. Louie Giglio preached and his message for the day was almost nothing than an ordinary diary written by an ordinary girl. But wait.. It's not just it. There's more to come. This girl's name was Ashley. Ashley wrote about her life, what she had went through, how her boyfriend had betrayed her again and again,how she thought that God would not love a girl who had messed up her life. But Ashley's life began to take a 180 degrees turnaround, when Ashley's friend named Fruitcake, attended Passion and shared with Ashley about what God had done for her. Soon,Ashley began to know more about God and believed in Him. Ashley found that God loved her so much no matter how much she had messed up. God wanted her to know that nothing,absolutely nothing that she had done could ever stopped Him from loving her more. But unfortunately, Ashley passed away in an accident. And she had only knew God for like barely 3 months! But her testimony has touched many lives. Her testimony has indeed glorified God. An ordinary girl who is able make an impact in so many people's lives. Who would have thought of that? ^So no matter how much you may have thought you've messed up your life and there is no more hope for you,please remember ONE thing- there is a God who cares for you and your life matters to Him. Do not let your past nor your failures resist you or hinder you from moving on in your life. There is still hope,joy and peace that can be found in the loving hands of God. No matter how dark your day may be, wait, sunshine will appear tomorrow. Persevere. Keep persevering. Do not lose hope. It's always worth waiting. And trust me,you would not regret. =)

Okay,after the sermon,we continued with songs of worship! woot! The God of this city was lifted up high! Seriously I tell you, God's presence was so strong. It really moved my heart. I have to say that going for this Passion concert ignited the fire in my heart once again to rise up and stand in the gap for my generation.

Greater things are yet to come,greater things are yet to be done in this city...

To the God of this City be the glory,honor and praise forever and ever!

Stomachache...

2008-08-05T09:22:00.000-07:00

Kinda like had tummyache yesterday night.. During my beauty sleep.. It hurts but can still tahan lah till morning. The cause precisely:

DURIANS!!!

Argh... Guess I didn't drink enough water after eating..

By the way,I ate about 6 to 7 pieces of durians last week and nothing happened to me.. But yesterday.. only 2.. Sigh.. Anyway,someone once mentioned to me that eating durians and chocolates at once can cause death! How true is that statement? I do not know.. =)

Lessons learnt: Don't eat too much.. Be modest.. And most of all,drink MORE water!!!

A fact.. Durians are aplenty almost every season. Just take a short-distance drive down the road and you'll see many stalls being set up selling the King of Fruits. Talk about having a family who are passionate about durians especially the guys in my home.. The contentment and satisfaction on their very faces speaks everything.. And I like seeing them happy.. And it happens only when they eat.... DURIANS!!! :D

Passion is coming to town!

2008-08-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

Passion!!! I've been waiting for this since about a month ago when I've heard Passion Band is coming to town! *woot* Wanted to go at that time but wasn't sure of a ticket yet till recently,I found out that my ADP department IS selling the tickets! Uber cool! :D

By the way,there was this Passion Quest Part 1 and Part 2 that went on around the month of July in college organized by SEGi's Student Council. Can't tell much about it because I didn't attend it. Sad case.. Didn't know it was connected or linked to Passion. Oh wells,it doesn't really matter now.. coz now.. I'm just looking forward for .... TOMORROW!!!

p/s: Worth thinking.. What's your passion? Is it worth living for? =p

Till next time.. Ciaoz.. =)